Love is for fools.

Jazz, you know?

Wednesday, February 28, 2007 @ 8:18 PM

ahhhhhh save me.

MATH TEST which i will surely fail, again.
jianbao wth zzz
music reflection (?!)
history reflection

WAHLAU EH damn sian la zz ): ohwell. Choybanheng please dont kill me tmr. &within 45min i can only do 1 qn okay nabei. I REALLY LOVE YOU.
argh &bloody sch xcountry is killing me. wth fagging stressed up la nabeiiiiiiiii. ):

give me back my 2006.

Labels: bloody stressed up

Tuesday, February 27, 2007 @ 11:17 PM

argh bloody sian ): e previous post is stupid la. dont know so angry for what.

anyway today is, well, happy, i guess. yeah &please dont talk cock with me about math test ok. piss off i failed. yay remedial kiazxszxs omg. sian la crazy i wanna drop both maths yay then left with BiCultural, LangArts, Chem &History woooo damn good. aiya nabei la damn stupid im just not cut for math, no matter how bloody Choy tortures me. sian ):

argh sch xcountry's in a week's time. faggot please please i dont wanna cry like nuts. runnnnnnnn.

这样就够了,
我只要你快乐. <3

last night was (: (: (:

Labels: (:

Monday, February 26, 2007 @ 11:40 PM

sometimes i wonder if im okay.
seriously, what is wrong with me ?!

i walk below blocks of flats &hope for some killer litter to drop on me.
i went, "wahlau scam me my fried rice give me so little for bloody 80cents. fuck." just this noon.
i stay up like nuts at night just to keep your name in e online list highlighted.
i sing so many wonderful songs but i never feel better.
i think of you so bloody often that i wanna get knocked down by a damned car &lose my memory of you.
i try to reminisce but e past just makes everything even more heart wrenching.

but one thing i am happy about: i am much more appreciative of you after e breakup.

baby you dont know. i think about you like a lunatic.

sometimes i feel its normal for me to be taking so much time &still not get over you. other times i feel so shit because ppl can get new boyfriends in a month. what the hell. sometimes i wish i were like them, other times i just wanna stay this way.

call me faithful, call me annoying. but im actually helpless. come on, i didnt beg God for this to happen. &i see no point in pretending i am so over him when im not. i dont have to, not for anyone. i have e damned right to get all emo &unless im suicidal, piss off. i believe in healing. healing by who or what i dont know though.

oh btw this is my blog so i can write all sorts of nonsense here w/o your honourable consent. get that right. let me clarify: feb's ending &mine comes at e start of e months so yeah, this is PMS. shut up.

well im actually just some bitch you wont wanna befriend but if you believe me then i must say you really are stupid. ok zaijian. CIADXEHTRE<3

Labels: LET'S BE NOOBS.

@ 8:31 PM

WOOOOOOOOOOOO REJOICE CHEM STUDENTS (: test is over hahahah. noobshitz, its yet another flop. /: ohwell nvm.
yay tuesdays are happy days too :D

ohyes today is damn weird. in e morn was like very zzzed then from 2nd break onwards became damn high omg :D we're funny ppl, but only we undstd our jokes ._. ohwell. :D then laughed my ass off with celine peishi aixin &chum xDxD damn gross jokes.

yeah then had music test with emily haha, pissed her off. oopsie sorry emily :D hmm i like tuesdays pretty much. byebye &happy belated bday to KC (:

pressure's building. ): i wanna.

Labels: (: ):

Sunday, February 25, 2007 @ 9:33 PM

hey today is a happy day (: praise Him !
yeah so e guys &dy came over in e afternoon to gamble like hell :D then off we went to dexter's house to continue. yay, but i lost like a hell lot of $$. ohwell, i really need mahjong trng !! ahhhhhh ! mahjong's damn fun (: yay ok so uh, congrats to wee ! for getting a new phone, finally (: i hope you wont regret. cause if you do, i cant help you. yeah &pray that i dont laugh at you haha.
the italian job is a zai show &i sort of finished my chem article review. yay byebye lisaikhang.
hmm so yup, (: (: (: 这样就够了。wo ai ni.

Labels: (:

Friday, February 23, 2007 @ 9:42 PM

hey today's okay. but was so high during sch (: sang many songs during C Lit cause no tchers hoho they didnt come. :D yay i love singing !! yup then before sch was so cool ! so long since i last ran more than 20min (: (: 26+ min ! WHEEEEEEE. :D yeah i know i sound damn noob but then sorry la, i am noob what. mentor e kids dont have e chance to run alot so yeah ):

yay tmr trng again. i guess im starting to like mentoring la huh. &tmr im gonna change my style of mentoring *makes mental note: dont whine to e kids. so yup i hope tmr goes well. (: LOVE CARROTS SO SO SO MUCH ! :D

anyway i hate conformity &following e crowd blindly. &I HATE STUPID PPL RAHHHH. zzz im so disappointed man, dammit. ): you've really changed, &i dont know what to do now. you're not e same anymore, not cute anymore. i call you a bitch for fun, dont become one. please dont. i hate to see you like that argh fag.

anyway last time i had like so many stupid crushes on different guys. which is totally bitchy &dumb. but now i thank God for changing me (: i dont know when i'll stop loving you, but guess what, i really dont care. just take care of yourself &be happy. i'll be loving you as a friend !!

let's all start anew-- Hello im Jasmine Tan nice to meet you (:

Labels: ):

Thursday, February 22, 2007 @ 8:18 PM

hey. argh so tired these days ): dont know what happened la. zzz keep feeling super sleepy rah. im not high anymore, even during D Lim &Sharleen's lessons, which is an omen. orhor !! ok lameshitz. but yeah, now like super sian everyday wahpiangz.

&thurdays suck e most. although there're trngs, thurdays are super long days omg can die la piangz. bloody noobshitz weeseow dismissed at 1.30pm wth smack her. ayeeeeeeeee so yeah life has been quite damned screwed nowadays &i miss being close with God. i feel like a noobshitz christian.

&i stink like shit now. argh sweat &rain combo lmao. today kept whining la cause e kids dont know how to do drills. ): next time must be a better mentor ! yeah sorry jj &amanda.
try ripping my heart out so i'll stop loving you. either that, or let me forget you on my own.
BYEBYE morning run tmr yay.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007 @ 11:19 PM

我们都很脆弱，不是吗？

一句分手，我就沮丧了三个多月。以后我一定不可以离婚，不然后果不堪设想。
以前的我十分坚强，不常落泪。现在的我好像随时都会飚泪。

我怎么了？我不喜欢这样的生活。

以前有你爱我，我可以不屑一切。现在没有你，什么都变得好重要。似乎是因为失去了你，就想尽办法想使其他事情代替你在我的心里。
三个多月了，一事无成。以为已经奔越十万八千里，其实一直都在原地踏步。不论有多机灵，人遇到感情问题时都是愚蠢的。
问世间情为何物，只叫人生死相续。

自以为很坚强地听、唱那些悲惨到不行的歌曲，最后还不是想起你。
谁说失恋不败，这人还没真正恋爱、失恋过才会这么说。
失恋好痛苦啊。
我是一个笨女人，失恋就败了，我也不会想掩饰我的伤心。
只希望你能幸福。

宝贝，我听的谣言太多太多了，但我会一直相信你。你也要让我看见我对你的信任没有浪费。你不是这种人，对吧？不管大家把你想成什么鬼样，你永远会是最美好的。

表达不出我对你的爱。今天我们又开始向对方打招呼了，我很高兴我们又能成为朋友。对啊，我是笨蛋没错。

三个月的时间真的就能让你忘了我们的爱吗？
那我为什么到现在还无时无刻想着你？
我也要忘记我爱你，这样我会好过点。

我在爱里残废，原来爱情这么伤。擦不掉你的脸，痛却更明显。
假装一切都很好，假装我很大方，假装不爱你。

@ 8:56 PM

ZZZZZZ MY MATH TEST TMR I SURE DIE ONE NABEI.
&THE BLOODY CHEM GRADED ASGMT WAHLAU EH I HATE HW LA LANJIAO !!!!!!!!!! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. wahlau eh what have i become man. i thought i wanted to mug properly. wth happened to me. &my athletic aspect is like shit leh wtf im a bloody loser. kaobei la. zzzzzzzzz i dont know what my race results will belike. &sch xcountry... im sure to break down after sch xcountry if i dont run well. wtf please please please.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007 @ 10:20 PM

nabei damn tired alr. ):
yay but karaoke damn high :D haha happy day today (: (: &extremely tiring too. rahhh RVIANS LET'S ALL BOYCOTT E TCHERS TMR. all dont hand in haha. noobshitz.
ok byebye. so tired-- gotta go bathe, wash face, brush teeth, wear shorts &socks, pray, try to fall asleep w/o thinking of you. byebye tmr is happy day yay. (: (: i will greet you as i've promised !!! BUT ARGHHHHHHH, STUPID SUCKY COMPLEXION. kanasai man nabei.

Labels: whine

@ 4:53 AM

yay hello :D i announced that i book e karaoke room later lmao. then i'll sing until all e glass crack &e whole house explode (X wahlau but actually i sing quite well one norhhx. xD
but why's everyone doing hw. turns me off la dammit. RAH NOOBSHITZ. hmm hw is noooooob ! er yeah &my complexion sucks now, machiam shit can. fag la piangz. how to go sch tmr man ahhhh ! ok so lame zzz. byebye off.

Labels: faggoty complexion during CNY

Monday, February 19, 2007 @ 9:43 PM

hey there (: 9pm show on chnl8 is like so zzz. ok nvm.
hmm so yup, nth much on chu2. /: yay tmr ! :D bainian at maternal relatives' houses yay :D yeah im closer to that side la thats why. (: karaoke time lmao.
oh, ytd:

jiawei &i.

3 pics only lol. anyway i got like dont know what saikhang arnd my chin. pimples or wtvr shit la nabei. then hw... ZZZ ! stupid noobshitz. i dont feel like doing, pissed off man. RAH !!!!!!
ok byebye. baby you ought to know how much hope you gave me by doing that. dont put bakkwa in front of me &expect me not to eat (if you get what i mean) it. either give me e whole bee cheng hiang or nth.
yay tmr (: (:

Labels: LET'S ALL GET FAT.

Sunday, February 18, 2007 @ 10:45 PM

yay hello today is chu1 ! (: &i went out to bainian of course. hoho i love my newyear clothes :D ohman all so pretty. wahlau :D pictures next time.
yay &im praying hard i dont get fat. or else i'll... DIE ! (X ok so lame. hmm i guess i'll start hw tmr. argh, turns me off la zzzz. stupid hw &stupid tests. inhumane rvh. RAH !
byebye i love youtubing (: &i love my pretty clothes ohman ! hahha wednesdays are happy days.
wont pin too much hope on you. i've learnt my lesson.

Labels: happy cny

@ 4:45 PM

woo so high (: thank you for making my day <3<3s. have no idea why you suddenly smsed me, but im happy &i thank God soooo much for you. do take care alright, cause i dont know when'll be e next time im gonna talk to you like that. ai ni.
btw HAPPY BDAY CHEONGWEE &MR ALLAN HO !!!!!! (: he lao shi i love you ! :D &happy cny everyone. im so excited cause after cny i can wear all my pretty clothes lol. i abstained from wearing them for like super long alr la ! buay tahan :D haha yay &thankyou muzzer<3
ohman manyee why are you not here to share my joy. do take care while you're there ok (: love you girl !

Labels: happy cny

Saturday, February 17, 2007 @ 8:06 PM

hey just finished reunion dinner. this year its a little different. i have a feeling that as years pass, e cny atmosphere fades. in e past i used to be very excited about fishballs &button mushrooms (lol) but now i eat them all like any other dinner. /: feels weird. as i grow i become more &more nonchalant to these festive stuff. i wonder what this means. ):

nvm. wanted to reflect abit. anyway if you're a keesiao: HELLO BELOVED ! RUIJIE SUGGESTED ON SUN (chu 8) KEESIAOS GO BAI NIAN !! :D AT ONE ANOTHER'S PLACE. (: (: please please make an effort to come !!! please please :D miss you keesiaos so much muah !!

yeah wish everyone a happy cny. haha &i have cute nails (: kexin i wanna see your fake nails lol. i'll become freaking fat after cny. omg.
btw on 4th march esther &i have an 8k race &on 5th march its sch xcountry. wth damn shit. zzz i hope i dont screw up. PLEASE ! ):

Labels: happy cny

@ 6:30 PM

Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time

There's no use looking back or wondering 
How it could be now or might have been 
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though, I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Ooooooohh yeah

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind

There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though, I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, oh baby
You'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say good-bye
No, no, no, no

I never had a dream come true
'Til the day that I found you
Even though, I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be

A part of me will always be with you

Labels: I LOVE YOU

Friday, February 16, 2007 @ 7:15 PM

TODAY WAS DAMN HAPPY CAUSE SAW RUNFENGGGGG ! :D damn happy la wahliew i love you runfeng ! i saw him then i "runfenggg !!!!!!!!!! ahhhhh !!!!!!!". then we held our arms out &he gave me a super big hug. :D ohman i cant believe i survived 2months w/o him in class alr. /: ohwell he's doing well over at NJ too. yay one of my favourite ppl (: wooooooooooooo runfenggg dearest.

yeah celebration was rather high with keesiaos !! :D:D WO AI NI MEN SO MUCH (: (&i love you too)

yup then after sch went Vivo with chum &was his advisor ! (X

brought cam to sch today but then didnt use zzz. damn dumb leh.
&its getting so complicated. i guess i dont wanna think about anything anymore. wtvr la i wanna be happy for CNY. breakups are stupid. have been listening to 原来爱情这么伤 by gigi leung these days. really nice song go listen (:
tmr wont be going for e unofficial trng. i dont know, i think i need a break from schwork &intense trng. ):

i want you to be extremely happy &not go astray. thats all, really. please be happy &take care. <3

Labels: CNY celebrations

Thursday, February 15, 2007 @ 8:54 PM

e Spanish do crazy things. tomato fights &climbing poles smeared with soap LMAO. such high ppl.

but anyway, today i feel so screwed. horrible la. trng with e kids was fine, i think im getting on quite well la. ok thank God.
CNY celebrations tmr. i can see RUNFENG omg i miss him so much. RAH RUNFENG I MISS YOU ! yay see him then will become damn high.

hmm im feeling damn effed up. zzzzzz you dont know how much i love you. i really dont know how ppl can get over breakups so quickly. or worse still, they dont even feel a shit. wth man, i wonder how these ppl do it. &yes, to a certain extent im envious of their ability. because if i can do so, i wldnt be in so much shit.
Dexter you're so wonderful. &im sorry i still love you. takecare<3.

teach me how to get over you.

Labels: why do i love you so.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007 @ 8:49 PM

wonderful lyrics of e video below. (:
dont freak out at e sight of Chinese characters la, READ !

我睁开眼睛却感觉不到天亮
东西吃一半莫名其妙哭一场
我忍住不想时间变得更漫长
也与你有关否则又开始胡思乱想

我日月无光忙得不知所以然
找朋友交谈其实全帮不上忙
以为会习惯有你在才是习惯
你曾住在我心上现在空了一个地方
原来爱情这么伤
比想象中还难
泪水总是不听话幸福躲起来不声不响
太多道理太牵强道理全是一样
说的时候很简单爱上后却正巧打乱
只想变的坚强强到能够去忘
无所谓悲伤只要学会抵抗
原来爱情这么伤
原来爱情是这样这样峰回路转
泪水明明流不干瞎了眼还要再爱一趟
有一天终于打完思念的一场战
回过头再看一看
原来爱情那么伤
下次还会不会这样

Labels: lyrics

@ 7:06 PM

原来爱情这么伤但我还是爱上让我奋不顾身的你。

@ 5:26 PM

festive of love (:

happy V everyone. i hope everyone had a good day. received a hell lot of sweets &chocs haha turned me on. e mere sight of them cheers me up alr :D everyone was like chionging arnd before national anthem lol then was damn bimbotic haha. hmm THANKS EVERYONE FOR ALL E STUFF (: made my day, really. esp yours my dear, thankyou. but im sorry i didnt give you anything. i didnt expect anything from you. thank you so much <3 although i dont know what e gifts meant (probably an apology for ditching me), i still thank you for remembering my favourite stuff. or maybe it was just a coincidence. well, take care ok. &thank God for you, Love.
so yup, today's a good day. praise God (:
many many many many "i love yous".

Labels: V for Valentine's

Tuesday, February 13, 2007 @ 9:11 PM

ytd was happy cause had Bombidums<3

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argh bad day. ): i hope Valentine's dont screw up too.
yeah now its half screwed cause Pa cldnt get e strawberries ): out of stock. ohwell ): i really hope Muzzer<3 managed to buy them or else i'll scream. Vday presents cannot be late !! ):
dont swear at me, im sorry. &dont be pissed off, i still wanna give you your Vday gift ): ): ): ): please please please accept my gift ok. i know you'll love it if you werent angry. im seriously sorry.
zzzzz so yeah. ): morning run tmr, then gift distributing with Bombidums<3 ! yeah everyone have a happy Valentine's. meanwhile i pray i'll enjoy mine too.
fancy Vday being on a wednesday, which means assembly X: /:
byebye God bless.

Labels: screwed

Monday, February 12, 2007 @ 8:33 PM

hello. please dont be so pissed my dear. (:

:D my carrots are with me now !! yay ! yuxin kexin claire wee sherrie (: (:
everyone, say hi !!
HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII *acts gay !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"lol that was actually me only"-sherrie/kexin
"i'm an outcast"-wee

yeah &sherrie actually thinks i love her ??!! cmon la damn ._. shut up la sherrie ! wahlau fag.

oh we all want Bombidums tee ! :D wee's groaning like a madcow lmao. heh ok byebye i love Bombidums &carrots !!! (: (: &please be happy my dear.

Labels: random

@ 7:45 AM

wtf stupid math ws. D: bloody pissed la nabei.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
&its worse now that i dont have a smartass boyfriend to consult.
what a life.
i get damn pissed when i dont know how to do those stupid qns la nabei lanjiao !!!!!!!!!!

sian la shit. &IM GONNA GET BLOODY FAT LIKE EK AFTER CNY. SHIT MAN. just now i tried my newyear clothes then i was like, OMGWTF JASMINE TAN YOU'RE FAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! asshole la life sucks.

Labels: RAHHHHHHHHHH

Sunday, February 11, 2007 @ 4:21 PM

im in a bloody bad mood ):

VALENTINE'S SURVEY!

Do you like anyone?:
yeah

Does he know it?:
guess so

HAVE YOU EVER. . .

Said "I love you" and meant it:
duh

Waited all night for a phone call that
never came?
dont think so

Sad and looked up at the stars?:
yeah

DO YOU PREFER. . .

Flowers or chocolate?:
chocs

Gray or black?:
neither

Color or black and white photo?:
both

Lust or love?
both

Sunrise or sunset?:
both

M&Ms or Skittles?:
depends

NON VALENTiNES DAY Q`S

Are you in a relationship?:
nah

If so, who with?:
nah

Star Sign?
pisces

Do you believe in love at first sight?:
nah its damn stupid

What about true love:
unconditional

Would you kiss on the first date?:
no !

Do you like hook ups?:
nah im not loose

Do you enjoy receiving flowers?:
flowers are gay but i dont mind

VALENTINES QUESTIONS

You have a valentine event planned
out?:
Bombidums<3

Do you like having a Valentine?
only 1 guy

Does someone like/love you currently?
yeah Bombidums, i think (:

Whats the best gift to receive on the
day?
anything from him la noob qn

Is a little kiss (peck on cheek) during school on valentines day sweet?
if its him, yeah damn sweeeeeeeeeeet i'll melt

Have you ever gotten something from someone on the day?
yeah

Labels: noob stuff

@ 4:14 PM

rejoice, im online.

anyway i've developed a flair for Here Without You, &Lips of an Angel is loading on Youtube. hmm e lyrics of e latter is like, so... i dont know la. but i like it. i think i listened to Here Without You too much, giving me a bloody headache. shit man.

&wth. since when was awesome spelt as 'ausom' LOL.

argh i vloe oyu dralnig.
im staring at you who's staring at her who's staring back at you.

Honey why you callin me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why you cryin
Is everything ok
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud

Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice
Sayin my name
It sounds so sweet
Comin from the lips of an angel
Hearin those words
It makes me weak

And I Dont
Never want to say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're callin me tonight
And yes I dreamt of you too
Does he know your talkin' to me?
Will it start a fight?
No, I don't think she has a clue

Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice
Sayin my name
It sounds so sweet
Comin from the lips of an angel
Hearin those words
It makes me weak

And I Dont
Never want to say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice
Sayin my name it sounds so sweet
Comin from the lips of an angel
Hearin those words
It makes me weak

And I Dont
Never want to say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Never want to say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you callin me so late?

Labels: random

Saturday, February 10, 2007 @ 10:02 PM

since i have nth to do (BECAUSE OF BLOODY MSN !), i shall blog.

omg im bored to death ok. anyway everyone please go to Twitter &be a member... cause its damn dumb ._.
but its true ! its dumb thats why i joined it lol. &zhiyingboo joined cause she likes e name Twitter.
point is: join Twitter cause its fun !! GOGOGO now !!!!!! &no, Twitter obviously didnt pay me for ads cause well, my readership is poor. lol ok i keep digressing. Twitter is good cause if you guys join then i have more ppl to kajiao (WHEN BLOODY MSN FAILS ON ME) :D yeah so be kind souls &join Twitter. (: byebye. oh i have a link to my own Twitter under e links section. go take a look !

Labels: random

@ 6:58 PM

well MSN must hate me, has been failing on me since like 4days ago ?!?! im totally pissed off ok. bloody msn.

oh i just saw this joke in an email kexin sent to me like long long ago. yes, you see, i have nth better to do so im reading my mail. argh. anyway, what's e chemical formula of water ?

HIJKLMNO !
cause its H to O. :D

._. sorry for being lame.
maybe rv will give out demerit points to lame ppl next time, since they give demerit points to almost everyone. /:

hmm anyway trng today was like lag, compared to e main team's. ): so sad, its been like so damn long since i ran an 8km. RAHHHHH. so today wee &i ran girl's route with e kiddies (wahlau damn slack) since we're e honourable mentors. ohwell. &unsurprisingly we lagged like hell cause they lagged like hell.
then off we went for e 2nd round !! wahpiang i love running !!!!!!!!!!! :D:D damn shuang la. but too bad, another girl's route only. argh i wanna run like hell. 7km is like totally slack la nabei, compared to last time. GRRRRRRR I DONT WANNA LAGGGGGGGGG faggot.

&stupid gst is raised to 7% wef today. wahpiangzzzzzzzzz.

Labels: exclaimation mark(s)

Friday, February 09, 2007 @ 10:12 PM

wah damn shiok (: i just ate choc cake again hohoho :D damn good.
anyway during C. Lit i doodled on Chummy's ASK journal:

im here without you Baby.

Labels: random

@ 8:57 PM

WTF MAN BLOODY MESSENGER. FAGGOT MSN. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH NABEI !

anyway it sucks to drift apart from used-to-be good friends. or even bestfriends. it sucks, really ): to see my good friends drift apart sucks as much.
well sometimes i hate Life for these stupid things that must happen.

trng's at 8 at macritchie tmr. but gotta go to boonlay to fetch e sec1 kiddies. well at least jjwong &wee are going with me. esther &shuying please take care ! get well real soon !!!! ):

anyway Vday's nearing, i hope Bombidums can hang out tgt since none of us have been asked out YET (X yeah &have you ever wondered what it'll be like if you've prepared a special gift for a more special friend but he hasnt ? will he be guilty his ungentleman-ness &stupidity or will he laugh at you ? once again im not talking about myself.

i hate to behave so stupidly &uncoolly in front of you. its even sadder for me to say how vulnerable i am when you're concerned. i thought i was brave-- until love was broken.

Labels: random

Thursday, February 08, 2007 @ 9:05 PM

RAH STUPID BLOGGER. i just blogged ok dammit. /:

anyway happy bday to papaaaaa (: cant wait to gobble up e cake hoho :D choc cake somemore (:

esther &shuying: dearests, please get well soon &come back for trngs. we miss you !! <3, bombidums.

you know, its a luxury to run, cause i dont even get to run during trngs now. to those who still have e chance to run, jiayou &count your blessings (: anyhow, morning run tmr (: (: (: !!! campus run yay.

oh &e sec1s better not piss me off otherwise i'll turn into a nasty old monstress who'll eat them up. most are ok but a couple of them like to talk back. nabei better dont provoke me. /:

hmm why are e keesiaos so sad huh. weird leh ): everyone's not as high anymore. give me back my 2006. ):

Labels: happy bday

Wednesday, February 07, 2007 @ 9:26 PM

wahlauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu *whines like yaoqin.
sian laaaa stupid history. why the hel is Germany the culprit of the war before TOV was signed omg. killing me leh nabeiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. ZZZ ! can die. somemore D. Lim threatened to throw our scripts away if its not quality work. wah sian. ): i wanna be his best student LMAO cause i like him a lot :D

ok byebye gtg. ): stupid msger is forever so screwed.
a week to Vday. wah no time to buy presents. /:

Labels: whine

Tuesday, February 06, 2007 @ 9:31 PM

hello im jasmine from 3k &we need a bloody window in e classroom ! faggot everyone's unwell.

GRRR. anyway today was actually a hiong day. but ohwell esther wee &i are e mentors for sec1s so we cldnt join e others. wahlau they were like so hiong la shit. i wanna be like them too, i wanna run !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH fag.
do you know how it feels to be un-sweaty on a trng day ?? it feels like shit !!! wth man, please dont tell im gonna be stuck with them forever. what'll happen to me ! omg. save me Bombidums !! ): ): ZZZ ! well ok enough of complaining.

Labels: exclaimation mark(s)

Monday, February 05, 2007 @ 8:33 PM

wahlau blogger better buck up. or else xanga will win all of us over. or maybe a new fad blog host. well ok nvm. /: nonsense.

anyway this morn had gym trng. i keep thinking e Cdiv's circuit trng is harder than our weights trng. LOL damn shit. hmm so yeah gym was pretty cool la. quite slack though.
then was class. i like LangArts when we do nth but talk about intellectual issues with YiWei. :D so cool la. i gain so much from these discussions. (: then i also enjoyed BiCultural with WanWan haha. cause she's like so knowledgeable wahlau damn cool. &was cutting my nails during Li SaiKhang's lesson lol damn sian leh wahlau. i saw peishi slapping herself with a ruler to keep her eyes open lmao. &somemore she's damn slack la, forever come late for lessons lo. /: nvm la not like i like chem.

tmr's trng.
suddenly tues trngs dont seem to excite me anymore. perhaps its cause i keep hearing things about you &her. well, i do hope for a miracle, but whats more impt is that you're happy &loved. may God bless you.

谁改变了我的世界
没有方向没有日夜
我看着天这一刻在想你
是否会对我一样思念
你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前
想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明

你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前
想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明
这是我对你爱的累积

Labels: why do i love you so.

Sunday, February 04, 2007 @ 8:58 PM

eh hello i got a damn stupid pic !
of me ._.

wahpiang lol. i got BIG FAT HAIR ! omg damn funny leh.

ok anyway yay ! i did my chi lusha which i owe jiangli :D &hist hw yayyyy (: but i dont wanna do math leh wth. wee complained to me say very hard, then i dont feel like doing liao. /: so if my liu asks, i'll say its wee's fault aha !
ok i gtg bathe &watch superstar ahha.

Saturday, February 03, 2007 @ 8:39 PM

rah.
i love my muzzer :D she rocks like siaoooooooooo. yay ! retail therapy = ownage.

rah. about him &her, well, i dont know what to say anymore la. let nature take its course &let God do His will. /: Rochers, running in e morn, blahblah. bitches ): ):

argh. but luckily he's online now. means he didnt go to DXO. yay (: praise God.

haah bought pretty stuff today. kao im damn happy :D :D rocks !

ps: i know what to buy for my dearests for Vday alr ! (:

Labels: retail therapy

Friday, February 02, 2007 @ 12:14 PM

yay just finished dinner hoho. so nice yum.
you know today we were talking about chinese holiday essay. ok forget it. /: i dont know how to exprain lol.

hmm today there's 2 chinese hw !!!! ahhhhhhhhhh due tmr. damn shit zzz. so tired ):
but anyway today's trng was good (: (: actually i was superduperrrrr tired after e superduperrrrr long day la. GRRR stupid lessons. ): then yeah, was damn sian &all. but sets came &i thought i wldnt be able to take it, but yay i completed sets wheep. (: shuang gan man. (: love running &carrots &Mrlee !!

yeah then e team is out woooo. germaine we're all so proud of you (: keep on running !!! C &Bgirls: jiayou all e way man. gogogo !!! :D wooooooooo. wo ai ni men, carrots (: (:

yup so i gotta go do hw &bathe now zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
I'll be waiting, whatever it takes.
byebye :D i hate feb ):

Thursday, February 01, 2007 @ 9:56 PM

wahlau bloody blogger forced me to switch. damn dumb rah !! so gay la right zzz !
anyway i forgot what i wanted to blog.
but do take care, my dear. fly away but i'll be waiting.
all e best, stupid gay.

argh i have become a stupid procastinator. dammit so shitty. /: come back nerdy jazz ! yay run run run tmr ! (: (: love carrots &keesiaos. /: &--x---.

&why must ppl have so many bfs/gfs before they settle down &get married then before you know, they're signing e divorce papers. &everything happens again, &again... /: why cant we stop being so fickle-minded &learn to commit &love &last till death ? why why why. why must we be so stupid. why must we have so many boyfriends. why cant we just love forever. ): why dont teenage relationships last. why are we so stupid &childish. why dont we learn to cherish before everything's gone ? why didnt i love you more ? why didnt i annoy you less ? why did i do all e things that drove you away. why.

then when you're seeing someone, why cant i just let go ? why must i be so miserable ? esp when its been 3months ?? why must girls be so stupid. why must i keep hanging on. why am i such a pest. why cant i forget you. why.

why do i keep missing you so much. why am i still so obsessed with you. why do i love you. you dont love me anymore, why dont i just let you fly away. why am i so sad over you ? you dont even care. why cant i be more cool &pretend im so fucking fine.

i cant stand this alr. why am i so stupid. why am i feeling so screwed. in years to come, you'll be but-another-guy. why am i clinging onto you like gross, chewed gum ? why cant i stop loving you. why does my heart ache whenever i think of e past. why dont you love me back. why dont i talk to you. why dont i be friendly with you. why dont i greet you. why do i ignore you. why do i stare. why do i cry. why do i want your hug so much. why do i need you so much. why must you become a part of my life before ditching me. why must all of this happen. why did i irritate you so much. why do i miss you so. why are you all over me ? why is your name on my mind forever. why do i cry for you inside. why do i love you so.

Labels: screwed

@ 1:38 PM

cut.

剪了两次发，我的心情还是一样。造型的确改变了，但除此以外，还有哪一部分的我改变了呢？
应该还有：我变坚强了。经一事长一智，就是这回事吧。

just how many damned haircuts do i need before... everything can be over ?
just how many times must i see you ppl before i get over you ?
just how long do i need to fall in love with someone else again ?
just how long more ?
you've moved on so happily &im deprived of my rights to care for you. now what man. enough laaaaaa. driving me nuts. zzzzzzzzzz !

feeling so horrible inside. /: where are e good ol' days. i miss you.

@ 10:44 AM

e day started stupidly &i despise LeeLeeM. but morning run was great (: yeah right, how can it be great, it makes me wanna break down.

then C. Lit, Langarts, Math, History (: hoho i love Yiwei &D. Lim. i hope C. Lit gets more interesting sooooon. /: Math's always so... Math.

sigh, so tmr's gonna be a super long day. hate thursdays argh. but yes i do love trngs, of course i do. (: carrots &Coachy<3

ok i gtg ! haha cut hair with weeseow :D haha i hope i dont screw up, &wee &olivia too haha. well, but so what if i screw up /X nth matters anymore aye ? AYE.

PDP today was somewhat morally challenging. i like discussions like that. (:

abstinence VS safe sex, what'd you think ?