jazz (:

2009-11-12T21:27:00.002+08:00

Running. Running. Running. Down the expressway. Like in a movie. Nobody else but myself. It's not sports, I'm fleeing. And seeking refuge.

2009-10-26T13:20:00.003+08:00

Here's how to stop yourself from online shopping:
You Want Me to Wear What?!?!

One word. Shit.

2009-10-16T11:34:00.000+08:00

Fucking fucking fucking fucking fucking fucking cannot wait for PW to end.

2009-10-14T19:49:00.002+08:00

Happy at Kexin's (:
Thank God for girlfriends, always.
Rchys this Sat heehee mummy's dslr...... Club pls club pls !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-10T11:25:00.002+08:00

You may be pretty, BUT YOU'RE SO BORING.

2009-10-03T10:52:00.000+08:00

Today, I came to Blogger and lagged at the 'New Post' page for 30min. I casually checked out Tumblr. And now it's time for a change. Goodbye to both of you.

2009-09-30T23:33:00.001+08:00

So many breakups, so little love.
My friends', my own, people I don't know... Disheartening but I guess it's only natural (?) that as we're struggling being young adults these problems surface. Freedom? More options? Tons of fish in the water? Seriously? Sometimes I think these excuses exist only to make both parties feel better about splitting. Other times I concede to that, cause we're all such fickle-minded assholes anyway.

Good not to cry over spilled milk. To have known and loved a boy who was once perfect in our eyes is so heartwarming. Be glad for love reciprocated is as amazing as a miracle. It is a blessing that we've for a while found the one who made us feel complete. Hugs for all the sad children. Brace yourself for it's time to move on.

Kz, better do something more constructive than this. And even better to have slept at 9 then wake up at 5 for PW. No-nonsense, you know? Boomz.

2009-09-28T20:55:00.001+08:00

Wish love was really free. Boys cld date boys and girls cld date boys and if we like, we cld all date boys and girls when our hearts tell us to. Wish that those in love wld never face discrimination, no matter their orientation. Wish that those in love cld tell one another. Wish they wldn't keep running away when their hearts long for an eternal embrace.

Wish that the teary-eyed wld have someone coming their way real soon to make them smile &laugh again, for real. Wish we cld cry when we want to, laugh when we feel like it...... Hug/kiss/makeout whenever we please. Wish I cld stop saying Fuck you all, change to Love you all heeheehee.

Aiya byebye la still Hating you all.

2009-09-26T23:43:00.002+08:00

They say don't cry when the sun is gone, because the tears won't let you see the stars. But I've been crying all day. Sure I can hold it in, if everyone else stops reminding me that my life is so screwed. If the mother &son cld get over themselves instead of yelling at each other over something so trivial, and if the lyricists didn't have their hearts as torn up as mine, then perhaps, I wld've been able to have a good rest at home.

It is Saturday and I'm still in the PJs I wore to bed last night. I have missed you. A little more than I should, a little more than I would, a little more than what's for my own good.

I imagined you on my sofa, and imagined myself on yours. I recalled the spontaneous trip to Msia and all the happiness that I thought wld last. If you wld be so kind, just give me some time. Cause it's not easy like you're having it.

2009-09-26T20:28:00.002+08:00

I was bored to tears.
And perhaps that is not just a metaphor. It isn't, when you're missing someone.

2009-08-30T16:00:00.000+08:00

Hungrygowhere, remember ?

Feeling like shit. Maybe it's the regular PMS, maybe not.

2009-08-27T15:53:00.001+08:00

Missing you. Hugs.

2009-08-26T17:49:00.000+08:00

One day I should get so terribly hung over and still realise the hard way nothing can drown sorrow.

I'm living on without you.

2009-08-23T09:56:00.000+08:00

I blogged about Love and my views but I didn't &don't wanna/dare to publish it because it's too incoherent haha. Random thoughts just thrown in without a verdict. Makes me feel stupid.

Anyw I took a picture with my Instax with my classmates when we were out ytd. We were excited because the backdrop was beautiful, green grass &the blue sky. The photo stopped developing after awhile-- overexposure. I was upset &googled 'How to fix an overexposed instant photo' but to no avail.

Reminds me of love. Once it ceases, nothing can recover it. I should've been convinced, now this just leaves me even more dejected.

It wasn't a perfect photo, but at least our silhouettes could be seen &we looked really pretty. Perhaps some things should be left incomplete.

2009-08-22T21:25:00.000+08:00

): I have a beer belly.

2009-08-20T21:17:00.001+08:00

Feeling fucking terrible

2009-08-20T19:46:00.001+08:00

FUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFUFU.
All of you (:

2009-08-13T21:56:00.002+08:00

Love, could be so generous

[Aug. 11th, 2009|11:51 am]

Today during assembly, this story was shared.
A blind girl met this really great guy, and said that if she could see she'd love to marry him. A miracle happened and a kind soul donated a pair of eyes to this girl. Once she saw the world and how beautiful it was, she realized the flaw of her boyfriend. He was blind too. Just like she had been. The boy asked her " Would you still marry me now you know i'm blind? " The girl refused to, saying that she had better things waiting for her in life. Stricken with agony, the boy left her a note on her bed one morning. " I was so happy to hear you say you'd marry me if you could see, so i donated my eyes to you. I hope you have a good life. Love, me"

Would we give so much for love? And if we have received, would we know how to reciprocate or would we take advantage?

-Makemeyell

This is the love I believe in.

2009-08-10T04:14:00.000+08:00

Honestly ? I've never been this hurt, ever.
Murderer.

2009-08-08T18:46:00.001+08:00

my complexion is horrible .-.

You could love a girl with all your heart, so hard that you only shed tears for her.
You could love a girl and paint a picture of your lives together henceforth.
You could love a girl so much that your bed feels empty without her.
You could love a girl and tell her things you don't tell anyone else.
You could love a girl then not look back when it's goodbye.
You could love a girl again, but make sure it's love.

2009-08-06T23:45:00.001+08:00

I'm not pekchek. I just want to talk to you. Or rather, I want you to talk to me. But fuck that, I know right.
I've changed since 2 years ago, don't be mistaken. Do you still read my blog? Thanks if you do.

2009-08-06T21:45:00.001+08:00

本是一对燕
只望比翼双飞
不知何为厌倦

今时沦为两只鸟
阳光道独木桥
可流泪勿打扰

无须论友情
爱你还得等你
看透美丽风景

2009-07-28T10:05:00.001+08:00

Happy &sexy single woman ?/!/./?!/~

GP Essay 1
GP Essay 2
Math Asgmt (Integration)
CLL Essay
EOM
CSC Essay 1
CSC Essay 2

Hello I shld be throned Queen of Procrastination.
Then again, I shldn't. I needed a lot of sleep, either that or a lot of water after a lot of tears. That was so last week though. Today I skipped sch, it's 10AM now I've like 12 hours to finish all that (last 2 not impt :D).

Went Kbox with Debbie &Peishi ytd after sch &it was a great destress session. Yipee sang many great songs = happy (:

I AM SO BRAVE TO THE MAX.

2009-07-25T14:15:00.000+08:00

我喜欢恋爱，但这次爱到妥协，最后都不爱了。
反复绑着你不让你飞，所以不怪你解放后焦急道别。
恋爱若痛苦，习惯也留不住坚决的离人。
我不怕句点，只畏惧寂寞。

2009-07-25T12:37:00.000+08:00

I've serious issues with being alone, &esp so of late. Think I'm gonna head to Cityhall later... Alone? Idk, I hope not? ): Byebye.

2009-07-19T15:39:00.001+08:00

等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

2009-07-19T11:11:00.000+08:00

Maybe I'm a little late, but sometimes it's not better to listen to the people who seem to always have an opinion, but those who shut up alot. I'm an example of the former, I don't aspire to be someone who's worth listening to. I just wanted to pass this voiceto someone else with less nonsense and more sense. Sometimes it's not the most popular/funniest blogs you shld visit, go take a look at those whom you think are boring &unhappening, you'd make a revelation.

2009-07-16T12:42:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I need a prettier layout on Daintily so my mood won't be ruined everytime I arrive at my own website ._.
Then, I'll be backkk.

I'm gonna utilise my little Instax to its fullest because it's too lovely, I have to use it ! Heehee 1 day when I go picnic with a loved one I'll take many photos tai bang le (: I'm so happy I'm gonna stock up on film yipeez. Oh &I got my pretty bodycon dress ! I'm going to become a crazy body-conscious galz now. I'm too blessed.

When I've time I'll upload pics from KL with the Darklord ! (: Ok, I've no more energy to maintain my excitement, goodbye. Show y'all pretty instant photos next time.

2009-07-15T21:17:00.001+08:00

It's not that I've not felt lovesick for a long time, I've been quite constantly so. But from now on, I'll feel it more often than ever, because...

2009-06-25T01:08:00.000+08:00

Good news ! Today is Wee's bday heehee love you dearest Weiwei :D

PLUS me is probably gonna get this !

&THIS FO SHER ! yipee !

BYEBYE. Punk's not dead, so ain't I.

2009-05-25T21:20:00.001+08:00

心寒，你懂吗?

我不在乎你、或你们怎么看我。如果你是真朋友，虽然也一定有说过我什么，我爱你。谢谢你们接受我。可以一起走到大学毕业、结婚、生子、老去，就好了。若无能，至少现在多聚一聚。

2009-05-24T16:37:00.002+08:00

LOVEOFPOP, You like?

2009-05-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

Deb, Jean, Veron &I to Flea-ker Of Hope, where Deb possibly swore her favourite Hokkien word for 300 times ? Sorry heehee we weren't really thoughtful but... you're very pretty hahaha. K la but we had fun taking pictures ma ~~~
Kz bye, I wanna watch Xmen ! Dexter I never knew Xmen was this good, thanks ! (:

PS: Haven't had pics up on my blog for so long plz.

2009-05-06T20:20:00.000+08:00

No wonder I'm the encourager.
C'mon already.

I want a laptop. Bye.

Stop reading this lame blog. Seriously.

2009-05-02T15:05:00.001+08:00

Happy kids don't need diaries.

Off to do more PI.

Mandy I love you.

2009-04-28T20:41:00.002+08:00

Sian shit everyday... I want to disappear. Zai jian le ~

Before that though, me managed to escape the trouble I'd otherwise have landed myself in. PI, CLL stuff blah blah. I am screwed. I'm gonna do all that now. I wanna dress up &go out ! ): I got benched today. Bye.

2009-04-25T21:08:00.001+08:00

i don't feel like blogging anymore.
just go away you guys.
idk why a person as ugly as me wld wanna have virtual profiles on FB &Friendster blahblah. I am so ugly. I don't even think I shld go out with y'all cause you're all so pretty. i just wanna vanish when you see your friends. i know they must be thinking why such a freak wld be in your clique. i am not pretending to be sad or wtvr. don't need you in my life if you think i'm this sort of person.

you all can go fuck yourselves i am so fucked up alr. i shld disappear now.

2009-04-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

Tmr I'll be Math Warrior with Jean, Deb &Peishi.

I've been procrastinating, even with blogging. No I do not feel obliged to type in this brown box but I always had a lot to say at the end of the day, I just don't get to it. I'm exhausted, sleepy &restless like a ghost. Fri's my girls night out but I've little cash to spare... Hope y'all understand.

I gave up Yunnan. I'm kinda letting Life decide for me since it's not confirmed. I kinda wanna go... But it won't be so fun if I was alone. Life throws such stuff at me so often I wish I could kick its ass.

Today, my being a goalie got a little better. Didn't scream as much blahblah... It's 10:11PM now I should go to sleep. I have a ton of homework undone. I am so feeling the stress, sumpa. I actually kinda wanna... quit school.

HA HA. Not unless the world will end in 3 years. Lame. I've so many thoughts in my head but they vanish so quickly everytime ! Sumpa I'm gonna bring my pink leopard printed notebook to school tmr ! Buaix.

2009-04-20T16:43:00.002+08:00

NYLONZ PLS

(:

2009-04-16T22:32:00.002+08:00

I am dying. I wanna buy blue heels &red heels. But I don't want purple heels. Wah so funny. Bye. Merah dudes. I need more sleep I am gonna die. I bought many things online, zen me ban ? ): I spend lotsa $ everyday I am a wastrel.

2009-04-15T22:09:00.001+08:00

"Sometimes these are the little things in life, these little imperfections, that make someone perfect for you."

I'm lonely enough.

Today I took a ride on the Emotional Roller Coaster. I should stop going to the theme park already.

2009-04-12T12:55:00.001+08:00

I feel like I'm a hermit. I'm quite indifferent about... many things.
But I'm happy about something ! My mum's done with my pink leopard printed notebook (: ! Bye.

2009-04-03T17:30:00.000+08:00

I just got to see this pair of crazy tribal heels Madonna wore for the LV ad up close. On the net of course. And wth, it's so rad that I think I like it ! But then again, I can't wear strappy heels that cover the ankles cause I'm so fat ! And no, it's not like I'm gonna buy it. Just saying............................

So this blog's not dead me is here. But it's in desperate need of pictures....................... I think I'm so boring actually. Wth I'm so sad. Oh I NEED TO TELL Y'ALL STH !!!!! V IMPT HAHAHAHHAH During the hols I saw this pair of shoes in On Pedder, I was totally bewitched ! It was frickin' hot pink and had heart shaped peeptoes !! Omggggggg. Lo and behold.......................

Swear if anyone gets them for me I'll hyperventilate. I AM SERIOUS. No preference at all cause both colours are pretty to death ! 18th birthday maybe ? (:
HINT WINK NUDGE. dcsy............................

:D:D:D:D Byebye. I LOVE SHOES !

2009-03-27T22:16:00.003+08:00

Today at GP we discussed about something that made me ponder-- why do so many of us deny marriage ? Do people cohabit for fear of commitment or do they want to uphold their belief in marriage being more sacred than the certificate ?

I think there is a point in staying single &attached because marriage has, to some extent, been reduced to a document. Divorce, alimony, custody, remarriage... Wth ? I just really want to get married and live life to the fullest with the Love of my life. But what if he isn't ? Highly possible to meet multiple true loves, so what if I met a true love &married him, then a bigger true love comes along ?
Is the pursuit of true love commendable after marriage ? Should one stay contented &let it pass you by ? &When it doesn't in your heart, what do you do ?

I have always looked forward to the day I take after my love's surname. But all the fantasy may have come to naught for I am likely to create a "Cohabiting FTW" group on Facebook.

Omg then what will happen to my "sex after marriage" ??????????????????????????

PS: How sad to have to put an article besides "the" before "true love".
PPS: I am disheartened ):

2009-03-18T23:03:00.001+08:00

I just clicked to kexin's blog, so going Botak Jones when i've the chance to ! :D Simi cajun chicken, wahlauuuuuuu laoniang had bad dinner ):

Anyway it's been long since I sat down here &write as I feel... I come here, look at the account name &decide to blog about nonsense &retreat to my private blog when I'm done here. Ironic right, how this is a diary for all to see, critique &bitch about. Cannot ever bare my heart here.

I feel like becoming severely ill, then I can take a break from all the sch stuff &all. Hate the deadlines when I don't even feel like doing anything constructive !!!!!!!!!!!!!! The only such thing I do is reading Starbucked (so going to Starbucks when I've the time &chance to too :D). Sian why can't they all just &*$@^#! off. Argh bye.

PS: Nice job to me typing with CAPITAL letters at the start of sentences. I like good English (:
PPS: Tmr Timbre (: Xiexie ni Jane.

2009-03-17T12:47:00.001+08:00

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

You weren't with me when this was on the stereo, but i was singing this to you. Loud &proud. Hands in the air, as if waving to you. Love you darling.

Zouk wasn't great. Barely near fine actually. Sigh, my only chance to party in 3 months. It's okay, if it were too good I may not be able to switch back to mugging mode. Tons of people, ridiculous volume.

Time to get cracking.

2009-03-13T13:36:00.003+08:00

i wanna play Cake Mania.

i dreamt of myself last night, having blood stained on my teeth. as crazy as me. i wanna have painted nails for a week. am gonna paint them later (: oh need to repaint toenails too z. am a very big bitch, no explanation.

sorry claire that i hurt you. i know this doesn't help one bit but i'm sincere. i love you i love you i love you.

ps: i'm really glad you wished me. even touched, to some extent. i wanna talk to you again, but i won't until i'm rid of bitterness. this isn't your fault.

2009-03-12T22:46:00.001+08:00

i am a bitch bitch bitch.

2009-03-06T12:06:00.000+08:00

hmmmmm i'm at home, planning to head to sch later in the afternoon to hand in stuff plus meet my carrots for the monthly dinner out (:
am missing a little someone (well not so little, she's taller) and i hope i'll meet up with her real soon !!! (: love you love you love you ! i hope you know who you are (: ! <3.

sch's been fine. but failed math, h1 math. lame. quite worried about ELL &GP. CSC as well but... it's so weird since i kinda know it's gonna be bad news. double lame.

15th is nearing i'm so *** excited omggggggggggggggggggggggg :D HURRAY TO PARTYING !!! &ALL MY PARTY PPL WAVE &SCREAM HEEHEE :D speaking of them, i met rf ytd. congrats we won hahaha. yipee. okkkkkkkkkkkkk gotta finish my stuff online then go back to ELL hw.

byebye you guys (: MARCH IS A HAPPY MONTH !

2009-02-25T18:47:00.002+08:00

gosh was blog hopping (including fashion blogs) &wowz, really there're so many temptations on the Net but me so insatiable... so poor.

haha it's okay, shopping for these sweet little things spurs me on to want to get a job i love (interest &money rolled into one). so determined to get those shoes &all ! red soled, strappy, in shocking pink... whatever man, bring it on. ahh, now it seems like an ridiculously long way to go. again.

okay shld not brood over stuff, i can look for cheap thrills too no ? (:

i'm gonna go off to do my chinese lit stuff now, am quite sure about getting a pair of heels for my bday (: after tests, My Highness is going to head to Gripz, Charles and K &the like to pamper my eyes &look for my bday gift heehee. excites me at the thought of it hahahah. bye :D

2009-02-20T21:50:00.000+08:00

hello loved ppl :D me is in a good mood because... TGIF ! yipee ! i know there's an entire week of tests awaiting me but heck, enjoy the weekend first right (: will see my lovely ppl tmr: happy.
k me will take pics tmr (: ! byebye me is abit sleepy ): super deprived of shopping &FUN :D yipee zoukkk in less than a month ! byebyez.

ps: hello where is my Benj Button &GossipG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (: CAN'T WAIT FOR END OF TESTS BEBE :D

2009-02-18T21:25:00.001+08:00

for the benefit of the 2 girls in the picture.

tests overwhelming me. i know this term's grades don't weigh much in the year end results but i still wanna do well for it. hmm now i'm worried i'll be burnt out before i even reach Sept. argh cannot cannot. i still have many things to do after A's ! so now must pia. ok la byebye silly me forgot to do willwee's hw so have to do now ): byebye. these couple of weeks... stupid tests make me so stressed my period pangseh our date. not a bad thing though ahahahah bye.

2009-02-15T12:00:00.001+08:00

yipee am finally in here &typing (:
was THE vee day ytd, wasn't exactly fabulous so...

J: i suddenly have a brilliant idea, let's have a make-up valentines' !
D: Heehee you this pig :D ok but today me gna do hw :)
J: yeah i know (: i didnt mean today you fart. you in ? if not i'll spend it alone hahaha.
D: You this idiot of course me in :D
J: hmm you set date fullstop (:

yay so we're gonna have a 2nd Vday !!!!! am so excited though nth's fixed wheehoo. ytd really wasn't at all good. maybe except for the dinner at Taste of Thailand, before dinner at his place, after we reached Yewtee, &when he came to my place for Maggi Mee supper :D
love you anyhow... roar !

V's eve was sweet though (: me like. &appreciate everyone !!!!!!

so today's hw day, sian.

ps: fed up with the stupid picture uploader.

2009-02-01T00:18:00.001+08:00

i think i'm still suffering from water retention, or maybe i'm just always swollen
i'm supposed to be doing hw ): promise to go back to it after this !
dk what to wear later
i've been really caught up with sch lately
i haven't been to town in a longgggg time
tired /:
i'm a possessive friend &girlf
i'm typing random statements ._.
i wanna go back to church, have been missing out so much since i stopped
going out to Natnl Lib to study later, what a killjoy hw is
weird that i'm looking forward to it though (: <3>
omg taking forever to do this
i wonder about many things which used to be so certain
lately, i really think... mfdlm.
i'm not blaming anyone though, just saying
my toe nail colour chipped lol
my fingernails are unhealthy ):
i don't like that sch's taking over everyth
2K didn't celebrate CNY this year
i think 5Q's cute
it's gonna rain
i'll miss Manyee ):
i'm going back to do GP hw roar
i think lunch's ready
gtg bye you

it's Feb. so fast.

2009-01-26T01:36:00.000+08:00

hey happy CNY &happy dressing up ! (: me so excited although me mum &i didn't get as many clothes as we wld in the past. anyw I'M SO NOT 50KG. screw the gym's weighing machine man, me is not menopausal thank God :D yay everyone I'M REALLY NOT 50 ! HEEHEE byez.

happy CNY you guys (: !

ps: 6C gathering pic soon k !

2009-01-25T12:18:00.000+08:00

"True friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love."

2009-01-21T20:43:00.002+08:00

wow, CNY soon. like visiting all over again &of course, the new pretty clothes (: me like. me love me mum she's so nice ! yay :D but am so not looking forward to getting fat please ! today took Height &Weight, &horrors, me gonna exerciseee !!!!11ONEONEONE.

5q's nice so far (: we have a lot of fun gossiping about others heehee. we shld take a pic soon (: ok byez. don't feel like doing math z. the math tcher's as shitty as his subj. yucks i feel so dirty typing this bye.

ps: happy 17th bday mineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

2009-01-19T22:15:00.000+08:00

feeling awful.
ni zai na li ? wo miss ni. ni zhi dao ma ? dui bu qi, dou shi wo de cuo ):

2009-01-18T22:20:00.000+08:00

800th.

thank you Grace.
sorry to you girls.

today was real screwed up. but serves me right so no hugs for me. i'm sad though. i still want hugs. sorry D.

i think i really need to turn to God. Father i'm so screwed i'm so sorry i need Your loving hands to comfort me.

2009-01-18T13:44:00.001+08:00

friends ?

when did qn mark start to follow friends. terrible. what happened to us seriously, where us does not refer to anyone or group in particular. just feel screwed up. i'm disappointed.

but who am i to say all this. i'm not perfect. no one is. &i ought to work on my own flaws before criticising others. my boyf shld leave me for a better girl right. i'm just a bitch who picks on a speck of sawdust on someone else when i actually have a wooden plank myself. yeah it's from the Bible but i can't rmb the exact verse cause i'm an awful backslider. jasmine what a disgrace.

shame on myself for being such a bad person.

2009-01-14T22:15:00.000+08:00

these 3 days were really kinda fun (: i'm surprised orientation actually turned out to be this fun (: great job you ppl. &many thanks !

5Q is a nice class, the name itself is nice enough heehee. me classmates are pleasant ppl generally so me like (: yay ok live in harmony i hope. sorry i can be a bitch at times but i like you ppl overall (:

lessons are starting tmr officially. am quite scared about it. it's like the cycle of a hectic life all over again. i really don't wanna settle for mediocre grades these 2 years. they're really impt to me. so me friends &i are so going to overcome the fatigue, mental &physical, so we get pretty report slips tgt. i love y'all man. thank you for standing by me <3.

D ! me gonna see you thru that challenge ok. &like i've said, for you a thousand times over. love you beautiful.

ps: happy bday ZRFFFFFFFFFFF (: &josephine !

2009-01-11T15:57:00.000+08:00

woohoo last night was fun ! (: yay made the best out of the last of holidays at least. yay to you guys (: ! a pity not all the Party Ppl were there though. to those who went, me appreciate you !! (: thanks wee &kexin esp, despite your early curfews you came ! (: love y'all &i didnt get screwed last night !

sch's starting... most impt thing's to adjust my biological clock. me getting awful dark eye rings gosh. rjjjjjjjj idk if you'll read this but i'll miss you &the group'll stay close. appreciate you (: claire, i haven't written you a terribly touching post about your leaving, but that doesn't mean i won't miss you. love you babe lyk srsly we must stick tgt or i slap you ah ! love ni sweets ):

thank you all for making this hols so eventful &enjoyable (: my spontaneous girls... the really fun guys... you rock man.
&lastly but never the least, thank you Love for always being with me.

2009-01-08T02:28:00.000+08:00

maybe i'm way more inferior, disgusting, heinous than i think i am. i can totally imagine ppl viewing my online profiles, going "gross right ?!" hahaha. so me. but it's fine i'm a bitch, i have THE RIGHT, HELLO ?

don't know. i'm just feeling weird. like, i am actually a freakin' wannabe too !! i'm so disgusting ! mandyyyyyyyyyy i miss you z. sian. it's like "do my friends really love me ?"

nvm bye i'm gonna sleep...

2009-01-06T16:10:00.001+08:00

feels weird blogging w/o pictures. haha see what technology does to budding writers like me.

nth much actually, just looking forward to sch, hoping all will still be well, or even better, when sch starts... need to fix screwed up wallet please. i'm such a genius, really. dang ok i'm so bored. byebye ):

2 of my friends are 17 alr ! :D happy 17, wilf &ziwei (:

2009-01-03T22:52:00.001+08:00

i'm actually quite excited about the new school year. wonder how everyth will turn out to be like... (: am quite optimistic leh ! heehee.

hmm what'll the lessons be like ? there'll be so much mingling &all at the start of the year ! i love making new friends :D hoping 09 will be an interesting &eventful year with all my friends &D whee. no doubt the workload will almost suffocate us but hey we can always spend time studying tgt no ? that'll be so sweet !!!! me like hoho. doesn't matter whether we have similar combis, studying tgt is a joy leh leh leh (:

cca... soccer ? i'm so lonely in it please. Claire you ran away zzz leaving me behind. kz, i'm still unsure if i really want to play serious soccer. wish me all the best, i need a cca that i really like (:

i'm gonna walk away from every height &weight session proudly hahaha, will run regularly to keep myself toned (: the hunt for good food continues nevertheless ! carrots to spend recess tgt at least monthly ! save at least $4 weekly ! don't pon PE :D ! Rchys, Awesomes, Party People (you know who you are :D) to not drift apart ! spend time with 2K ppl (: wilf me very long never see you alr ! D we can spend time tgt despite hectic schedules (: !!!!!

love everyone muah muah byez. ok maybe i don't wanna be too much of a bitch in 09. xoxo.

2009-01-03T19:00:00.000+08:00

2009-01-03T16:01:00.001+08:00

am i the weirdest bitch ever or what ?
siao just ignore la ._. zzz kanasai.

anyhow was out with D, rj &kexin ytd, was very cute me like (: hahahah rj you're the man !!!! pics up soon with our dinner hahah me like to take pics with my food ! sigh. i feel abit weird. staying at home on a Saturday ? so not me. bye i need a new sch bag &decorate my new wallet. z sian bye.

2009-01-01T18:33:00.001+08:00

this face shld be the most familiar one to me. every mole, every blemish...
i like looking at you. sometimes you'd look back at me, sometimes you'd allow me to admire your side profile. but today. today was different. when i looked at you, i saw your eyes. they looked at me with disappointment, sadness, worry &a slight reluctance to stand by me.

i'm sorry that i'm such a letdown, always. so wilful, so dependent on you, so bloody selfish. i'm sorry i ruined the fun we cld have had (&we're definitely doing this again guys ! promise i won't get screwed, serious). i've tears in my eyes as i'm typing this. yeah you're right, this is what i always do to you. &it's as if i've the licence to do so-- to hurt you physically &verbally instead of giving you loving hugs &kisses. you probably won't believe me, but i love you i love you i love you. thrice, i said those words.
i don't know who gave you this sort of strength to go on being with me, because i'm such a brat. i know how much you've sacrificed so willingly, i know every night sth tugs at your heart &you realise your bed's too empty. i know i can never imagine what you'd do for/to me just to ensure that i'm happy &safe. you're the best, every single time you draw me into your arms. you're the best, every time you smile at me &tell me it's okay. you're the best, cause when i feel down, i run to you for comfort; when i'm gleeful you're there to share my joy &laugh with me. but how does the little girl you dote on so much treat you ? i don't even know where to begin recounting my inconsiderate &hurtful deeds.

i won't say sorry, i know you want sth more than that. you scoff when i say i'll try, but i'm still gonna say it-- i'll try to redeem myself.

thank you for your faith, loyalty &your tender loving care. you're in every special way appreciated.

In these ever-changing days,
You're the one thing that remains.
I could stay like this forever.

2008-12-30T21:30:00.000+08:00

2008-12-29T17:00:00.001+08:00

have been facebooking, blogshopping, going out too much. hmm plus my connection's screwed up so i can't upload pics. i hope you still like me this way (:

am so looking forward to tonight !!! it's gonna be like so freaking fun ?! must take many many pics :D zrf do you see this, rchys do you see this !!!!!! dexter me want take pics with you in da club too wheehoo ! okayyyyyy so xmas eve/xmas day was fun, enjoyed myself. ytd was 1st anniversary, so HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY ! (((((((((:

me will upload nice pics soon ! can't wait for tonight ! i hope i won't look fat in the dress i'm gonna wear. heehee so happy woo !

2008-12-25T13:35:00.000+08:00

last night &this morning was a blast, had such fun with me beloved carrotssssssssss. lovelove !!! i think it's really cool that we still have so much fun tgt despite the absence of trngs &meals after that. love you guys a lot, seriously !!!!!!!!! no regrets spending xmas eve 08 with y'all :D

pics soon, i'm out. my week's kinda packed, which is cool :D Rchys at Cheeky Chocs later whee !! then dinner with D, then we're gonna chill at some cool place i believe haha. woohoo !!!!!!!! byez.

MERRY XMAS WO AI CARROTS :D

2008-12-23T23:35:00.004+08:00

ME IS GOING TO RE DO MY CARD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I ONLY WANT TO GIVE YOU THE BEST BYEZ.

2008-12-23T23:35:00.003+08:00

ME IS GOING TO RE DO MY CARD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I ONLY WANT TO GIVE YOU THE BEST BYEZ.

2008-12-23T23:35:00.002+08:00

ME IS GOING TO RE DO MY CARD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I ONLY WANT TO GIVE YOU THE BEST BYEZ.

2008-12-23T19:20:00.000+08:00

here ! hope can go party again soon !!!!!

2008-12-23T01:42:00.002+08:00

yay am happy cause baby i bought new clothes !! so did Mummy :DDDDDD whee so happy hahaha why the hell do i sound like a kid. RRRRRRR ROAR. so bebe me is feeling much better now !!!! &thank you for always listening to meeeee (: even though for awhile, all i said were swear words heehee :D love you.
but am still very envious of you guys who're partying at Zouk now omgggggggggggggggggg to the macks please !!!!!!!! roar i wanna be a guy too lyk srsly ahhahaha. grrrrrrr i love parties :D ! me gonna make good use of the hols (have been doing so :D) cause i'm gonna pia next year wheeeeee :D bebe i'm so excited bring me to the next Zouk party kkkkz :D !

woohoo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really hope 29th will be super fun yay hohoho. okkkkkkkk i just don't want it to be like Play (which suckssssss to da macks thx). aiyaaaaaaaa i want Jook the most hahah Zouk.

k la zaijiannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn tmr wee the seow is coming over to bake with meeeeeeeeeeeee omg sweets i haven't seen you/bonded with you for like so freaking longgggggggggggggggg. yayz tmr is like so exciting ! prep for xmas yipee :D !!!! BYEBYEZ ME GONNA SLEEP NOW. me boyf in the clubbbbbbbb me wanna dance with him ahhaha byez.

2008-12-21T15:45:00.000+08:00

Food Republic @ Wisma :D

Island Creamery !

Zee Go Ba @ void deck :D

4i chalet crashing heehee.

Bake cookies @ ME HOUSE :D

Shokudo @ Cityhall !

Swensen's @ Bugis after work !

Makansutraaaaaaaa.

Bak Kut Teh with D's fam :D very niceeeeee.

whee very most recent to oldest (:
wahahhaha D you better be on your guard or you'll become fat just like me !!! :D love youuuuu. i hope you enjoy eating with me as much as i do with you (: !!! byebyez, am so excited about xmas eve, xmas day &28th !!!!!!! yipee !!

2008-12-18T13:42:00.000+08:00

haha am finally done with browsing thru all the blogshops (: gonna finish my lunch then chiong outttttttt ! yay hanging out with DDDDDDD &buying smas presentssssssss :D pics soon me promise kkkkkk. byebyez.

2008-12-10T13:15:00.001+08:00

hellllloooooo i'm missing MANDY WONG NINE.

past few days have been sweet for me because of a certain DCSY ththththank you for making my days ((((((((: as for a girlf of mine, i believe things haven't been too sweet. hope your problems get resolved ok, love you stupid hamster.

working alone later, which is a tad depressing. argh. then i'll be so lonely when i head home toooooooo ): then my stupid earphones are screwed uppppp ! GRR. sian. k la byez i'm gonna paint my nails now.

2008-12-08T13:30:00.002+08:00

EFFFFFFFF BYEZ NO PICS FOR NOW. BLOODY CONNECTION.

omg screw the internet connection !!!!!!!!!! anyw, towned with D, Siuyi &Zieng ytd was cool we never went out like that before :D watched Wild Child, typical chick flick (which D did not enjoy) then ate PastaM. saw Allanho hahaha wth cheeky dude.

dk what's in store for me laterrrrrrrrrrr. Makansutra perhaps ? my boyf &i are gonna become Siamese twins soon hahahaha it's actually fortunate we don't live tgt. love youuuuuuuuuuuuu Chia.

PS: i think she fell for him just as she was about to succeed getting rid of him.
PPS: totally looking forward to 17TH too !!!!!

2008-12-07T01:30:00.000+08:00

i'm very sad ): i still suck at mental sums after so many years out of prisch. roar that game in Facebook, uh Who Has The Biggest Brain ? i suck at it !!!!!!!!! i think i'm mathematically retarded how sad roar !

nvm, i'm happy cause i just ordered clothes woo :DDDDDDDD happy. byez.

2008-12-02T22:50:00.001+08:00

sometimes there're so many things on my mind. yet what i can tell my friends or anyone at all is only the tip of the iceberg. is this what growing up is about ? feels so weird, as if i've no friends /:

anyhow, last night's Zouk was pretty cool ! (: our guys went on stage to challenge another group, ahhaha their dance was cute, proud of them :D am very happy, was telling D just now that it's cool to see 2 cliques combine. like now czw knows claire ! &rf knows jane ! damn cool priest. guess what's the best, being able to go out with Mandy &D tgt :D LOVE MY FRIENDSZX. love a certain Dexter Chia too (:

ps: hi i'm jasmine &i love parties with my Right Company.
pps: MINI DATE TMR (: LUV.

2008-11-30T23:00:00.001+08:00

haha i think i wanna commend myself for being courageous enough to post a look up on LookBook :D cccccool :D

wedding was great (: ! MMMMMandy are you having fun in Romeeeeeeee ? thinking of you babe.

hmmmmmmmmm the ppl at work didn't call us up. dang. wth is going on worz. dk if i'm supposed to go tmr howwwwwwwwwz. &i very long never spend time with a certain person nicknamed D liao roar. starting tmr there's work againnnnnnnn. byez. maybe partying tmr haha, i think am doing so abit too hard. but nah i'm still going if parents/time/body allow(s).

ps: i think my makeup during the wedding dinner was cool, am gonna wear that when i'm in the mood for makeup (:

2008-11-27T11:45:00.001+08:00

noooooooo. MANDY WO YAO PICS FROM POWERHOUSE (: !

anyw the past few days have been eventful for me. on Sunday there was the usual Gramps' visiting, but unusually, many ppl (who were always absent) were there so am happy. Sun night was sleepover at Mands', yeah like a real sleepover which is not equal to slumber party. so not much actually, decided to stay over to help her get ready &just be there (then i realised i wasn't very much needed). then it was XOXO @ PowerHouse :D loved it cause of the company woohoo ! swear it was so enjoyable :D pics soon kkkkkkkz. hahaha gotta party with that bunch again !! aiya i know i still suck at club dancing but who cares my friends love me (:

okkkkk post my fav pics from St James. haha no why just because everyone looks good in them.

PS: still in his undies &shirt which i slept in last night. still haven't figured out some stuff. call me stupid if you wish but don't ask me about our plans to resolve wtvr problems we have.

2008-11-24T23:34:00.001+08:00

makes me think that we don't belong tgt, despite all that we've gone through.
maybe i'm the bitch, or maybe you're the asshole, or maybe we just don't love each other enough.

2008-11-23T14:06:00.001+08:00

i'm fine now.

2008-11-23T00:50:00.000+08:00

same old sense of inferiority
same old face
same old bitches
same old hair
same old quarrels
same old tears
same old laughter
same old jokes
same old complaints
same old guy
same old habits
same old flu
same old hobbies
same old me.

i think i really am such a paranoid &faithless bitch. BUT SO ARE YOU. feeling like slapping you man.

anyway, excited about NH prom &tuesday night, hope everything goes smoothly. free from work for the coming week ! happy. probably staying over at Mandyluv's &MANDY MANDY MANDY PLEASE TELL ME YOU CAN GO OUT ON TUES NIGHT PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Suzhou ppl are at the airport, probably on the plane by now, bon voyage. will miss you guys (: missing RF as well. either day out with Muzzer or RF today since it's past midnight.

byez i'm sad today.

2008-11-22T01:28:00.000+08:00

am lazy to blog but still here i am.

soccer trng this morning then went home with Wilf &Nicholas afterward. got to spend time with W on the train (like finally) &it felt nice (: i miss you &i think i missed out on many others whom i still care for &love in my previous entry.

like ZTJJ too. (get well soon you !)

roar. anyw soccer was cool today !! I LIKE (: still contemplating over soccer as cca... but it's really fun, loved soccer since like, p3 :D haha when i was still so young &when girls &guys weren't THAT different yet... when i cld still join in the fun with all my guy friends w/o feeling awkward. i miss being so free.

byez.

2008-11-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

i guess sometimes even bestfriends can drift apart... for awhile. not to worry, i think we all need to take a break from our routine lives. like once in a while, we want to flirt with guys besides our significant other, or there'll be an urge to make new friends. but the less obvious but certainly true thing is, that we never wanna really leave our "old" lives with our old friends behind.
change is indeed the only constant, but that doesn't mean that the new cannot include the old.

these are the new ones:

these are the 3year ones:

these are pretty old ones:

&this is my oldest one (:

love you guys.

2008-11-20T13:15:00.000+08:00

am so relieved i don't have work today. no one asked me out so it seems i'm gonna be a homely girl for today. went to D's after work last night to join in the bday party (: was cool over there haha i like gatherings (: further proves my extroverted personality. so byebye, gonna watch GossipG now byez.

PS: happy bday fat yikai (: !

2008-11-19T12:36:00.001+08:00

i'm damn sad ): i thought dinner wld've been fun tonight, &it's such a pity i won't be able to make it. dammit, i'm such an idiot to have called so frickin' early argh. working on coming fri &sat too, there goes 2 of my playdays. I AM A SAD PIG. to console myself, i will buy a new dress roar. sorry kexin ):

): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

do you ever miss me ?
ohwell, nvm i have to bear responsibility for my stupidity. gotta go have lunch, bathe, out to vivo, get present, work, wish D's mum happy bday, home. bye.

PS: anyhow, happy bday Mrs. Chia ! (:

edited:
haha have not done this sort of things in a long time. siuyi i've done it !

1. my friends ..

i love :D

2. i'm listening to ...

nothing in particular

3. maybe i should learn ..

to be nicer &LESS BITCHY

4. i love ..

my friends :D

5. my plan ..

tonight is to buy a decent present &wish D's mum happy bday (:

6. i don't understand ..

life

7. i lost ..

my Doraemon purse a fortnight ago

8. people say ..

i have thick lips

9. i am missing ..

sec2 times

10. love means ..

sweet surrender

11.somewhere, someone is ..

looking out for his/her significant other

12. i'm always searching for ..

good food

13. forever seems ..

so sweet yet so impossible

14. i never want to ..

be a letdown

15. my mobile phone ..

is 1 year old

16. when i wake up in the morning..

my nose is always oily

17. i get annoyed when
ppl stand on the right side of escalators but refuse to move their asses

18. parties are ..

one of my favs

19. hugs or kisses?

both please thanks

20. today i ..

called my supervisor, told her i can work tonight, then tried to cancel work but fail, so am sad

21. tomorrow i'll be ..

free from work !

22. i really want..

to be hot

23. i ..

just had lunch

24. what is your phone brand?

Sony Erricson

25. what are the last three digits of your phone number?

265

26. what does the second message say in your inbox?

RF: Lol k.

27. who was the last person you rang?

Dexter

28. who was the last missed call from?

29. what does the oldest message in your inbox say?

Kexin: Roar how!

30. who comes after "J"?

many

31 .go to your sent messages, what does the tenth message say?

just deleted my sent msgs

32. who is you network provider?

Starhub

33. how many messages are there in your inbox?

494

34. who do you have on speed dial three?

35. if you are on prepaid card now, how much credits do you have?

._.

36. who is the first person who comes after "C"?

Celine

37. what do you have as your main ringtone?

Boom De Ya Da

38. pass this quiz to 10 person

._.

2008-11-18T14:02:00.000+08:00

worked at the jap restaurant (our 2nd day) last night from 6-10pm (: was way cooler than our 1st time. had supper after work in the restaurant &everyone was so jolly ! i like ~ haha so will working later on as well. but i don't deny that work's kinda taking up my time for friends &D. haven't been out with RF, Awesomes, BBDs, sec4 carrots for a while alr, &i do miss them all ! Sentosa soon okkkkkkkk (though i'll probably be one of those who's caught up at work).

kz, so i hope Eugene will call us back often so i can earn $$ :D

2008-11-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

sigh, so there's work tmr. i thought they wldn't call me since it's late alr, (hello, they called near 9.30pm ok !) but they did. argh, &i think the closing shift is damn cham one ! ohno.

but nvm, tmr got Sentosa so fUnNnN ! :D yayz, but i'll have to bathe there so i dont work with smelly hair &all. ok baiz.

2008-11-16T02:20:00.002+08:00

photos from day out with Mands &D !

&this was last night, considering the fact that it's past midnight alr.
it's fam day tmr at the zoo, as in official family day at my dad's company. no we don't have any family day at home, no one really cares now anyw, right ? anyw the point is i don't feel like going ): i think i used to look forward to spending time with my fam, but i guess i don't anym. it's kinda boring being out with them. now that i think about it, the only excitement wld be taking photos. what the hell, ok i don't think i'm going anym. dang, i'm such a letdown.

is it just me or... ? i dig parties/alcohol/acting like a slut slash crazy woman with my girls more than family days. what a wastrel i am. okay i know that look on your face, stop judging me. i'm but a teenager, all i want is to have fun, nth wrong aye ? what the heck, i'm being weird again ._.

Dinner at Hip Diner then town with Rchys. anyw, i tried Hip Diner's Ocean Fish &Fries or sth &it fell short of my expectations, sigh. D's Grilled BBQ Chicken was not bad though. conclusion ? Nyny ftw (:
oh, Xmas is coming !

Goodbye, i look forward to a week full of joy (:

2008-11-15T15:08:00.002+08:00

haven't been in the mood to blog lately, but that's okay cause i'm still gonna blog now. so the 1st week of holidays was spent at a wokrshop organised by Singapore Radio Academy, 4k bbq at Tj's, soccer trng at KCPSS, day out with the Bestf &the Boyf, Rchys' (fake) sleepover, GothamP, &finally home. before the week started there was Sentosa outing with a few BBDs, &a few other schmates, which was cool (:

week 1 was happening, oh &i started work at this restaurant too, &i hope the rest of the holidays is gonna be as eventful &fun as the week that has just passed. lovin' my friends !! :D

PHOTOS !:

kayz am off, more soon (: bye.

PS: HAPPY 18TH TAY JUNJIE ZAVIAR :D OMG BLURRER !

2008-11-14T22:44:00.001+08:00

sometimes it's hard not to envy.

2008-11-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

i can't find my Doraemon purse. it's so frustrating. I NEED MY EZLINK &IC. i'm 16 i can club ! argh. wtf. tmr's gonna be so tiring please. frickin' long day ._. how am i gonna travel arnd w/o my stupid blue card ! wahlau eh kaobei &^!#@%@*$__^_&+%*%#^$^!

2008-11-08T21:03:00.003+08:00

i think my Mike He may have met his match-- Chace Crawford. i know so many ppl will think that Chace C. is obviously hotter than Mike, but i am not a fan of red-hairs. so they're equally hot.

okay, sth in my heart tells me i'm lying. argh ok maybe Chace C. is a tad hotter than Mike. ARGH, can't believe my infidelity.

anyw, watching Gossip Girl online is so annoying. the videos load like shit ._. thanks to Claire, though, for lending me Season 1. love DVDs. bye.

ps: (on a very random note,) i am determined to become one of those super girls who works her heels damn well. jane those heels at my place are so tempting. i think i may actually get them ! ROAR. cheaper cheaper please ? ahhahhaha.

2008-11-08T00:10:00.001+08:00

thank God i edited the 1st 5, i do take shit photos.

i look like a complete retard here.

kexin you need to smile like this (:

no cleavage. don't laugh.

PS: given the many years as bestfs, i shldn't be saying this cause you shld know by now, that i'm so not gonna ditch you. this is the last time you're gonna be pissed off over stuff like that, cause you need to rmb that i love you i love you i love you.
so till the 12th, M-wah.

2008-11-07T19:52:00.000+08:00

if "tomorrow will be better" than today, then won't death day be the best day &birth day the worst ?