i kinda stopped writing in my diary. &it's very probably because it's ugly. i need a new diary !

hmm tmr's there's this seminar which i volunteered to go to (lol what. i followed the HOM of lifelong learning cannot si bo ?), along with Jeanette Awch, Jieen &a few others. it's like from morning till evening la. can die (or most possibly, sleep) leh how. ok hope it'll be fun, if not the 3 of us can play Bingo or sth ahahhaha. date with Zrf on Monday, sandwiched in btwn is a mini meetup with Claire to interview for a job (:

CLAIRE I MISS YOU !!! have been seeing kexin far too often you know ! i'm sick of her ): y'all don't tell her ah ! shhhhh (ok lame lol).

EH KEXIN HOW WAS THE PRESIDENT THING ! LOL I MISS YOU ! I'M SORRY I DIDN'T ACCOMPANY YOU ! see you soon ok (:

I HATE HYPOCRITES. seriously you know, always act close with different ppl so disgusting ): on the blog somemore ! so obvious ._. like that noob Daintily blogger.






so yup i'm gonna go work out abit, bathe, lag, sleep !
tmr seminar, home, wash up, dinner, movie, stuff to zhng my nails :D (so excited hahaha)

Labels: lame, schedule, zhng myself

wahlau my life is sooo mundane that it bores me like hell too.
ok juiciest news: my younger bro is heavier than me hahahha ._.

my life so happening sia:

• woke at 11am
• left to meet kexin
• chilled arnd Ikea &Queensway Shopping (while it was raining ! stupid shit, i had to eat icecream with rainwater ._. &fyi, i ate icecream 2 days in a row ! how interesting)
• went sch for Math
• almost died
• home
• dinner
• evening nap
• com
  

i'm too embarrassed about my boring life, so to jazz things up A LITTLE, nah, here's a stupid pic from aeons ago. i think i need beer or sth lol, no worries i'm just sian.

ps: 2 days to SATC (((((((((:

Labels: mundane

watched What Happens In Vegas ytd with a few keesiaos. not bad go watch it, 3.5/5 la.

i'm sending spoonful after spoonful of choc icecream into my gap, straight from the tub of calories. i'm quite sure i'm sad/lonely. yeah i'm lonely so kexin return my call ! lol need a hug.

anyway talked to Mandy last night. was great (: LOVE YOU BEST (: MISS YOU. looking forward to our double date ahhahahah.

decided to go to Math alone today. not really used to it cause like, i'm usually with at least 1 friend ? i kinda only choose to be alone when i'm in a foul mood. yet i like to be alone cause i'm lazy to talk/laugh or wtvr la. so yeah i was pulling a damn chow bin listening to music until i saw BingBing boy lol. then like, sort of went sch tgt. idk why it still felt abit like i was alone. maybe cause we didn't talk a lot la. arrived in class with effed up mood (ok i wanna stop eating the icecream alr i'm sick of it someone help me keep in the fridge) but yap ys damn funny so cheered up lol.
he's damn funny la wth lol. lame dude :D

omg i'm so full now. bloody diet plan got screwed again ._. stupid idiotic weak mind. I'M SO EFFING FAT DAMMITTTTTTTTTT !

Labels: zzzzzz

fuck everyone. so what if i'm crude. judge me for all i care. bye.

TGIF ! :D plus today's the last day of term2 ! (although that's not REALLY the case, we still have math lessons for like, 4 days, 2hours each ._.)

hmm so sch was uh alright lo, math is just damn sian laaaaaaaa what the heck .-. i don't get all the physics thing. &nope, no more physics-inclined cute math tutor. nvm claire i still have you right ? although i always cannot get your explanation &make you pekchek lol. yeah i don't care i don't wanna listen i know my girls love me that's all that matters no ?

PEISHI ! HERE'S A SHOUTOUT TO YOU:
take care during the hols yeah ! rmb, mentality ! keep up with the diligence, but give yourself morale boosters ok ! :D you can get it from me at $5 per pill. jiayou.

went to claire's today. watched 27 dresses but i fell asleep as usual. i'm weird, i always fall asleep at ppl's houses hahaha wth. hmm kexin made me feel bad cause i'm very superduperultra bitchy. aiyaaaaaaaa. sorry laaaaaa. i'm like that what. like abit cannot help it leh. anyway what's done can't be undone what ._. aiyaaaaaa ok la sorry to whoever was offended. i'm a bitch la, don't mind me. i'm so mean ):

uhhhhhhhh. i'm so fat. &i'm still drinking .-. alcohol makes one fat right ? z. wtvr la i don't have a boyf who's gonna hug me from behind, rest his hands on my tummy &make me feel obese. is that supposed to be a good thing ??? LOL actually, whatever la.
what the heck i burped like a glam queen thanks :D damn hot now bye gonna bathe.

ps: 6days to SATC ? :D

Labels: claire's at gombak, girlfriends are better than boyfriends, me is bitch, tgif

zzzzzzzzz ._. idk ._. sian cause idk what's gonna happen to my cca points since i ponned so much ._. dammit. so sian ._. ok wtvr don't make myself more sian ._. zzzzzzzzzzzzz !

anyway i'm sian. lol ok sorry but i'm really sian. how ._. wah this face sucks. hmm ok imma finish jieen's lame book soon then continue with PS ILY. idk why i'm reading the lame book. lol maybe i miss the marykate &ashley-ish kinda books lol. meaningless one.

zaijian. happy bday aixin's mum lol.

Labels: ._., sian, zzz

aiyaaaaaaaaa *whines like shit
I DON'T WANNA FILE MY MATH WS LA ! NABEI NOT IN THE MOOD ._. WTVR. ZZZZ SIAN I SUPER HATE FILING DAMMIT. bye i'm gonna sleep after reading abit of PS ILY. now need to do stupid sel assessment. judge other ppl, best man ._.

Labels: ._., zzz

note: pics that i am in do not do my glamness ANY justice at all: either too fat or too ugly, trust me (hahaha). words in brackets are not meant to be seen tyvm.


today was cross country day. shitty outcome .-. stupid sch, stupid organisation, stupid shit hypocritical bitch who only knows how to talk cock. used to ask for hugs on really shitty days but my hugger quit ._.
anyway nvm doesn't really matter. i was a letdown so i've no rights to complain. hi i'm from athletics &i'm not joking. yeah i got pwned like *. don't wanna be noob anymore. i'll train. sorry girls for not being able to keep up. i know, serves me right for ponning so much. aiya wtvr don't judge me thanks. doesn't feel good alr to get a shitty placing.

it's raining now... makes me blue.




沙发上睡着
孤单冷醒的破晓
冷的面条热的泪痕
啤酒在苦笑
当时的煎熬
当时的心痛如绞
天终于亮了
遗憾终于退潮
终于能够
恨不再疯
泪不再掉
心不跑

没有你爱我知道
没有你在我很好
每分每秒我没有烦恼
我开始学习在黑暗里睡觉
也不会因为害怕难熬
没有我在你很好
没有我爱你更好
你每年每月都往哪跑
虽然我还是会想念你的好
我只想跟你说现在我很好

Labels: BBDs, cross country day, lyrics, no hugs for me, pics, shitty

i was given up on. thankyou for appreciating me for what i am. thankyou for i felt loved.
it's alright i'm fine, i still have myself &God.
i hope you take care of yourself cause i can't take care of you anymore. bless you.
i think we've all matured over the years. is this being strong or being numb ? you know, although we still ended up like crap, i thank God for letting me know you. i saw both the ugliest &most beautiful side of you. saw you in an awful plight, saw you when you were so damned charming. saw your stupid face when you just woke up, with morning breath &all, saw you when you were hot. i'm not gonna call you silly names anymore, &i'm not gonna hear you making stupid requests anymore. you said we cld be good friends, &i said yeah but i know we're just gonna drift apart... do take care &may the Lord's angels watch over you.
love, Jazz.


tmr's cross country are you nervous. more like sian right lol i know.
tmr may not be a fruitful day in terms of prizes but i certainly hope it'll be meaningful. i love you my girls, i love you. &tmr we're gonna be great, not because we'd own but because we wld do it tgt. thank you Lord God for this team. AI NI MEN BBDS !







One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. 'Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!'
'What are you going to do with them?' Jesus asked.
Satan replied, 'Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!' 'And what will you do when you get done with them?' Jesus asked. 'Oh, I'll kill 'em,' Satan glared proudly. 'How much do you want for them?' Jesus asked. 'Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you. You don't want those people!!'

'How much?' He asked again. Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, 'All your blood, tears and your life.'
Jesus said, 'DONE!' Then He paid the price.
Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.
Isn't it funny how someone can say 'I believe in God' but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also 'believes' in God).

Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing?
Isn't it funny how when you go to forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to them.
Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me.

Labels: cross country day, goodbye, thank God, wo ai BBDs

ohno i'm watching The Notebook now, waiting for the last part to load.

wahlau this show puts me in the constant state of being on the verge of tears man. wahkao GOOD SHOW WATCHHHHHHH :D thankyou claire for reminding me to watch. i hope the ending will be great (: i'm hungry like shit ._. wth. i'm going all the way to Changi tmr, my maid 's going home *gasps ! no one makes my bed, no one cuts me fruits anymore ! zzzzz ohwell. yes don't tell me i'm 16, i am fully aware. yup so my fam &i are gonna visit Terminus 3. then outing with BBDs ! maybe fags too.. wahlau i'm really damn hungry.

nah, here's the link. go watch !
The Notebook

ps: if there's one slut in my life who never stops stealing other ppl's boyfs, then it must be the bitch with D as her initial. but in the june hols i may just join her for all you know, under a little coercion from a certain victim of D, since i'll never be able to beat her.
yeah you got it-- Dota.

bye i'm gonna continue watching !

Labels: dota, online movie

love my girls.

haha, i've a feeling this is the end. i don't think you care right. it's okay, thank you for everything.
someday those cheeks will be dry. i'm strong.
the whole damned world is breaking up &if i cld i wldn't join in. it's not fun.

even though we're gonna leave this cca &may go separate ways
even though there were super many times we quarreled
even though we get abit clique-ish at times
even though the fags &bimbs only got much closer last year
even though we screwed up seniors' farewell twice
even though we bitch about one another sometimes
even though bing doesn't greet us when he sees us
even though jiaxu's jokes are usually lame
even though esther gets fed up when we're too boisterous
even though wee is emo
even though claire is mad
even though huishan is whiny
even though sherrie hops arnd trying hard to become invisible when she's awkward
even though yuxin is obsessed with 'nutritional value' labels
even though shuying is a bitch who sometimes doesn't hear me when i say hi
even though junxiang is a flirt
even though jon ong has gay laughter
even though germaine seldom hangs out with us
even though we "don't know what the future holds"
i'm glad to have known y'all.
i hope we stay close, have lunch tgt often, &still keep the common identity of being carrots.
thankyou for the support
thankyou for the jokes
thankyou for the encouragement
thankyou for the closeness
thankyou for running tgt
thankyou for bitching tgt
thankyou for laughing tgt
thankyou for crying tgt
thankyou for shopping tgt
thankyou for being my mates
this team... is a gift from God.














Hallelujah for y'all.
LOVE.

Labels: bbds and fags, i love

you don't know no shit.

ahead of me lies a split road.
no it isn't unfamiliar
for i've lost track of the number of times i've faced struggles like this,
but why is it that the older i grow, the weaker i become.
i used to brave through times like that,
i used to follow my heart.
but you know,
i don't trust my heart no more,
cause for so many times it made the wrong decisions;
it led me on the wrong paths.

sometimes i wish i didn't have feelings
don't wanna give a damn about you.
yeah she's right,
you have no obligation to spend time with me.
i'm always being a brat, sorry.
so i've no right to ask you to read this yeah ?
let alone get angry if you say "aiya so long i lazy read".

forget it la.

Labels: stupid heart

heyszx it's been longggg.

ponned sch today idk what lesson is it now but i'm happy lagging arnd the house. haha &there's Urban today ! lol idk why i'm so happy about it but lol yeah i like Urban. but hey, dresses aren't dead, are they ? hmm... oh ! ytd there was EL performance, it was damn good ((((((((((: hey girls well done. i totally loved it :D ariel hahha was so cute &kind in the play ! damn i wish i had a bestf like her.

anyway i know it's been like more than a month (?) but i'm still reading the novel Koizora, or Sky of Love. but i'm finishing alr k ! then my next will be PS I Love You, yes i know i'm slow so what bitch. i'm excited ! lol eh plus i have many movies to watch, both online &in the cinema. ahhhhh.

eh zzz i'm getting kinda bored here ._.

why do you leave me feeling so lost &dejected so very often ? i always complain about other couples breaking up then patching up like lame noobs, but damn ain't i the biggest idiot here. aiya, idk why this is happening. i've never imagined myself doing all this, not that i did anything real horrible, but yeah. stupid to be in this plight. no nth much happened lately, it's just that i was thinking about this whole thing &i was wondering when all this will end. (i can smell my maid's fried rice :D) wait, i don't even know what the end means. but cmon, i'm sure you can do better than this ? because i know i definitely can-- in fact i cld treat you ten times better. i'm just afraid la, afraid that the more i put in the sadder i'll be. &yeah i figured that i'm not so good as to give you unconditional love. it's difficult.
i thought i cld...

Labels: /:, flicks and novels, ponnage, unconditional love

i hate period .-. period.

anyway i ate like hell today ohnooooooo. sian. ok nvm, shall not cry over spilled milk. sch ended at like, 5.20pm today ? LOL midyears over still wanna torture us ._. got back math p1, sian still fail. forever fail ._. wtvr la, hope p2 will be better lo. chem also confirm fail liao, 2 subjs gone. wahhhhhhhhh sai.

someone is acting cute to me, but it really is kinda cute lol. anyway i think kiwis are cute fruits lol ok that's a stupid thought. i'm bored ._. bye, pics soon haha.

ANYWAY SOMEONE ENLIGHTEN ME: WHAT DO I DO AFTER MY PICS CAPACITY IN BLOGGER IS ALL USED UP ? ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

Labels: bored, lame

hey, this weekend was fab (: !

PICNIC WITH BBDS YTD.
was gay, but ecp is like the best place for RELACKING ! :D &we were kinda in a corner cause we were at the uluer end. the ski park was just behind us, that place is song man ! yayyyyyy. happy outing (: ! but kexin fell down at the start of the outing, lol skinny clumsy girl. kexin shuying &i reached first &we were quite high lol then the others came, gayed arnd. ESTHER TAN KE HUI ! WE MISSED YOU ! ): GET WELL SOON ! bicycles, rollerblades, self shots, fruits, beehoon, gossip, love. just... love bbds la.
outing with fags soon k !
shuying send me pics please (w/o photoshopping your own act-sunshine face) :D











TODAY: TOWN WITH MUMMYD !
happy mums' day :D love you love you love you ! hahah anyway thankyou so much kexin lol for the free ride to orchard yay thanks was cool. so yeah towned arnd with lomo (: so happy then we looked at pretty clothes &talked. LOVE MY MUM A LOT :D




i super like this rose tube dress ! :D damn pretty la ! $223 ._.





ps: i hope i get myself a job with a good pay &better still great company in the june hols. NEED $ FOR CLOTHES !
pps: sch tmr. yay love the lagging period after exams (: mr yap yew sun please don't act serious &insist on having lessons laaaa lol.

Labels: BBDs outing, muzzer's day, post-midyears

heyszx :D
wow last night was gooooooood ! i slept for like, 10hours ? HAHAHA DAMN HAPPY ! :D yeah i know, midyears are over &i was supposed to stay up to do wtvr using the com. but screw that la, i love sleepig ! oops, sleeping :D
so 4k ppl went out tgt ytd to just chill at vivo then town. PICS :D ! ohyes, i wanna work during the hols, totally need more cash. ah, when am i gonna find the perfect boyf (perfect just means loving &rich la) ? nooooooooo. i need to satisfy my superficial &materialistic self ASAP !

anyway we headed for vivo after math, hunted for food &settled for a shithole of a restaurant. ok not that bad, but it serves shitty food, don't go to Terra ! LOL.

waited for geog ppl to join us, went to town. we went to like, 3 restaurants ytd lol. pigs.
oh then we were at shaw house. ax &i saw this Fendi booth or sth, i like Carina Lau's bag ! :D go see if you're going to town. so the person asked if we wanna design our own bag on this com programme &we did. so did the other girls. haha, then ax &i clowned arnd in Fendi. i think that's the only time i'll ever be allowed to do that. damn funny :D i like Fendi ! Dior too ! hah, fat hope la, i'll never have the chance to carry their bags. WHATEVER.




















yeah this is my bruzzer. ax commented that he looks the No Rules guy, the one who always does this to his eyebrows. hahah like shit. oh &if you were wondering, i wasn't really acting glamorous, just trying to hide my awful complexion lol. but actually i prefer you to think that i was superstarring.

bye. wow, long entry.

ps: picnic at ECP with BBDs later, don't know if the fags are joining us /: but nvm, i hope we have fun (((((((:

Labels: 4k chicks, post-midyears, random

hey i miss blogging. i miss chilling with my friends !!! i miss lagging arnd but i don't miss being fat ._. thanks, i know i'm getting damn big.

anyhow tmr is like D DAY !!! :D so happy shalala. lollllll class outing tmr ? picnic with bbds &fags on sat ? :D my life rules. hhahahhahah. shopping with muzzer<3 ? binge at home &outside ? major bitching sessions ? heaps of laughter &fun ? many many more outings ? sleepovers ? fab food ? HELLO POST-MIDYEARS ! :D:D

so excited yay :D all i need is more more more $$$$$$$$$ (X bye, good luck for the last (2) papers (((((((((: ohwell, math to end it all for me.

Labels: $, fat, midyears, post-midyears

heyszx. i'm sian. need to start studying after this blog entry &a nice bath (: wow suddenly c. lit is freaking me out.

so these few days were alright, haha math &chem were killer papers. totally discouraged me like crap ._. damn hard ! LOL wth. sian. scared sehhhhhhhhhhh. :D
k la bye i must not be a stupid procastinator !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ZAIJIAN.
FRIDAY WO LAI YE :D

ps: HAPPY BDAY DENGYIN (: !

Labels: happy bday, midyears

wow today i ate like crap lol.

papers were alright la, hope my A1s don't fly away, pleaseeeeeeee. yay weekend break again ! :D damn happy la. I'M SO FRIGGING FAT MAN HAHAHA BUT SO WHAT, DON'T NEED YOU TO TELL ME.

went home with ax after papers, ate V8 at QuickBites (or QuickBite. wtvr) yumyumyum :D then we ordered somemore, not yet contented. i ate one more fried chicken drumstick lol fatsssss. i've no confidence at all to wear a bikini anymore what the heckkkkkkkk. eh wahlau last time my figure buay pai k ! :D then we lagged arnd, talked &all. hahahha she wants me to point out things she shldnt do/say in future.


that's us in lot 1. she insisted that we look like midgets in the reflection. where got la, it's only because her head is big. lol.

KEXIN CLAIRE WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. miss y'all. BBDs &Fags so need to chill tgt after midyears ! &2K NEEDS AN OUTING TOOO :D SO DO MY COUSINS &I hahahha. i'm an asshole cause i spend a lot ._.

bye everyone good luck for remaining papers.

Labels: i feel freakin' fat, midyears