): BC exam tmr. kiakia (show luo).

mugging makes one fatttttttttt.
labour day hurry come ! i need to sleep ! ): damn scared about everything.
thankyou for teaching me chem calculations hohoho.
i'm so damn tired ._. bathe, sleep .-.
i wanna see you before my bc tmr, please ?

the whole world is sad ):
manyee i miss you. mandy too ):
love all my friends &that includes God.

Labels: midyears

love my BBDs &Fags (although no pics of the latter) !

ps: so damn stressed over midyears ._.

Labels: bbds and fags, carrots, midyears

HELP !
FREERICE !

Labels: random

• need to stop lagging arnd at home &get cracking .-.
• happy today ! (:
• woke up at 10plus AM
• met up with a few bbds &fags at lot1
• lagged, went cotton on
• spent quite a long time there ._. i know
• thank God the guys were nice enough not to get angry
• bought a pair of shorts haha i like :D
• went out for lunch with fam minus jasontan
• lagged arnd courts ._.
• I WANT MY OWN BEDROOM. WAHLAU I'M 16 LA ! ._.
• dropped off at lot1 with muzzer<3
• shopped at cotton on again, got my stuff :D
• popular, then home
• wah sleepy now shit
• wah cannot la, at least must memorise lunyu first
• ok zaijian
• jiayou for midyears revision everyoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
• scared sia

HAPPY BDAY VERON LOY &JIAXU Z. (:

Labels: happy bday, midyears, point form

sian ): i got stomachache wth ): wthhhhhh. bye.
scared of freaking midyears. zzzzzz. damn scary wth.
i rubbed my eye until its red &swollen &smaller than the other one lol siao.
bye i'm sleepy, have to go sch on my own tmr z.

mr yap is super funny:
millipede
centipede
kilomepede (?!)

HAHHAAHHAHAHH siao lang damn lame sia.

Labels: midyears, zzz

everything's so damn complicated. learn math also no use, can't factorise things to make them simple. not trying to be lame although it's lame, just wondering about life as usual.

midyears are so damn near alr, i'm super scared ): gimme some support will you ? stupid shit, you're supposed to teach me chem &math k ! zzzz alright forget it i'm so lame &stupid &selfish &petty. so yeah gotta mug hardddddddd. damn scared sia, k la bye.



go carrots...
gombak dinner tmr night.

Labels: CARROTS I LOVE YOU, complexity, midyears

tiredddddd. ): everyday also tired, i hear you say. yalah of course, not only physically, like entire person-- body, mind &soul also tired la. sian. how ah, i wanna just laze arnd whole day &pamper myself until i song then continue studying leh ): i'm scared of midyears, but part of me wants it to come asap so i can get over &done with it soooooon. aiya, i scared la, somemore got this stupid someone who doesn't tutor me anymore ._. wtvr la. ZZZZZZZZZZ.

):


totally need to focus on my midyears revision. mugging makes one fat(ter). i feel sleepy now, best ._.


ps: 2days to cross nationals'. everyone jiayou. love carrots.

Labels: midyears, zzzzzz

last night was a blast, totally.
happy bday ahgonggggg ! (:
was at my aunt's, karaoked the whole night till 12+ hoho damn song, damn long never sing so much alr ! (: thankyou ahyi. love my extended fam (: miss my bigbro &tay manyeeee ):

was at mac with wee just now, did some stuff, wee left first, i did somemore stuff alone, left home for dinner. waiting for *********** ._.

wtvr la i don't really care anymore. you don't really love me do you. yeah &it's my fault.

Labels: ._., happy bday

this is how i feel about men: men equals jerks men equals jerks men equals jerks men equals jerks men equals jerks men equals jerks men equals jerks men equals jerks men equals jerks men equals jerks men equals jerks men equals jerks men equals jerks men equals jerks men equals jerks.

this is how i talk to them (or him to be precise): hey lover i miss you.

this is how i feel after he does sth sweet: thank God for you, you must be my greatest gift from God.

this is the conclusion: girls are stupid men are jerks girls are stupid men are jerks girls are stupid men are jerks girls are stupid men are jerks girls are stupid men are jerks girls are stupid men are jerks girls are stupid men are jerks girls are stupid men are jerks girls are stupid men are jerks girls are stupid men are jerks girls are stupid men are jerks girls are stupid men are jerks.

bye i'm freaking fat like shit.

Labels: boys hate girls

aiya i'm pissed off la ._. stupid IVLE system, go suck shit la zzzz.

i haven't used the com for 2 days. ppl busy mugging k ! :D
zz damn scared for midyears ): need a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot of motivation &encouragement. i wanna be damn productive everytime i study &i wanna study more more more. GIMME GIMME MORE !!!! O: ok sian. i'm super sleepy now omg zzzzz how ): k la bye. love your hugs.

ps: i hope we'll keep in close contact &still hang out often even when we're apart.

Labels: midyears

blocked nose now ._. feels kinda sucky.
math test was uh, ._. but thank God for the tutor last night hahaha i rmbed what he said &i applied ok ! :D ok la, may not pass, but... don't know, see how it goes lo. happy for my essay.
friends crisis again ._. i think i'm too sian to really give a damn. idk, this time i don't really care. true friends will stay for a lifetime. &i only need true friends.
hallelujah for everything. imma do my jianbao 4 now.

Labels: feeling whatever

it's weird yet cool. i'm just glad i didn't lose you, my friend. haha, God &His miraculous doings (:
so yeah, sweet that we're talking again.

7year-long lost friend.

Labels: love my friends

it's raining now. i hate it when i'm home cause i won't be able to focus on doing hw ):

i'm trying to hang in there on my own, &it's getting tough all over again. Lord will You save me, will You reach out Your mighty hand, will You give me strength, will You give me a warm embrace, will You please be there for me. will You win my heart over, will You take me away. Father i wanna depend on You, i wanna let go of all my sins &sorrow &guilt.

&i wanna give this much love to someone who deserves it.
bye i've been lagging at the com since forever, serves me right if i don't get good grades ):
i feel like crying.

Labels: help

omg i cried like mad over Sky of Love. everyone go watch man.
so a certain someone didn't call. heck.
bye it's like 3:01AM now ._.

Labels: sky of love

hey. back from SAJC's ALIVE concert (:
was really good. was out the whole day though, i'm tired. a certain someone still isn't calling, wtvr, i don't give a damn anymore ._.

sent my bro off to army ): won't see him for a long time, i hope he's well taken care of. wasted my whole morning &half of my afternoon at stupid Tekong. but the army canteen food is not bad ! better than RVH canteen food definitely. i hope i didn't miss too much things out esp for math ! ):/

reached home, chionged to get ready for SA concert, ate Subway with kexin, met claire, reached SA, met karl. saw many seniors today !!!!!! (: i miss having seniors arnd in sch /:
JANE YOUR BREAKDANCE TEAM DID WELL (if you ever get to see this (: ). the concert was quite good overall, inspired me a lot la. i love God, hallelujah ! thankyou jane &claire for inviting me hoho. great day with kexin claire &karl ahaha ok maybe he's not a bad friend la.

so yeah i wanna watch Sky of Love soon ._. as in at home. love all my friends, bye.

ps: KEXIN SEND PICS SOON ! (: THANKS.
pps: ok it's past midnight now, i think it's chyi chyuan's bday right ! happy 18th (: !

Labels: happy bday, i love you my Lord God, long day

hi.

• the sch day was damn long again ):
• mr yap was exceptionally funny ytd &today ahhahahah made me laugh like mad, damn funny :D
• i wanna borrow a book from the sch library after midyears ! :D Empresssssssss.
• had waffle with aixin at queensway, chatted as usual (:
• reached home, lagged, dined out with fam at Yishun
• fab food man !!! :D Taste of Thailand. but it's an ulu place with cats ._.
• bro going army tmr ): i wanna send him off at Pasir Ris !!!!!!!!!!!!
• my papa like don't allow ._.
• byebye i wanna watch Sky of Love when i've time.

Labels: point form, random

this is gay, but thanks to whoever who gave me 20 virtual hugs at a go. i feel loved haha.
today was like, sick. spent like 5hours of my day in the east ._. temasek jc is just damn far from us, nth more to say. took 67 for like 2hours until i wanna die. just finished my bachor mee (: the talk was boring. slept. bye.

I WILL GET USED TO IT. SO WHAT, YOU THINK YOU DUA ? I DON'T GIVE A SHIT. I DON'T NEED YOU.

Labels: ._.

have you wondered
when we're angry
why we're so hard on ourselves ?


what are we fighting for ? things &ppl that we think belong to us ?
idk why but i feel so... resigned ): so siannnnnn.
if i'm gonna remove smileys from behind more &more ppl's names in my phonebook, i'll just do it because i'm tired of fighting alr. if my friends whom i love are gonna leave me then i'll bid them farewell like a man. if i'm gonna lose this guy even as a buddy then i'll have nth else to say except "take care &be happy."

love all my friends. bye.

Labels: fight ?, friends

hey i'm doing my zuowen 4 now ): gotta email Jiang by 2359hrs today. hmm pon most of morning today, didn't get to see doc though /: so many ppl wanna have long weekend &feign sick &take the day off on monday huhhhhh. went to 3 clinics, all have to wait like 1hour. lol like a no. can't afford to miss math lesson, see see, i'm good.

trng tmr, most probably going. i miss being an enthu carrot. i miss the enthu carrot seniors ): everytime i think back of the wonderful times all the carrots had tgt, i feel like crying. everytime i reminisce, i see emily grinning, i see jjwong squinting unintentionally, i see lirui clowning, i see chrislyn hyena-ing, i see peishi bimbo-ing, i see amanda &her act fierce/dao face, i see janice &her orange hairband, i see chuanmin &her sky high claps, i see mish &her cute braces, i see weekiat, i see hendy doing magic tricks &handstands, i see desmy &her vampire teeth, i see all my seniors being super nice to us. i see BBDs &the Faggots laughing like mad on the wobbly bus.
i miss all this. i miss carrots' soccer.

alright bye i gtg do work now. Juno's loading.
nice song below, What About Now, Chris Daughtry.






Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late

Labels: BBDs + Himbos, love you carrot seniors, lyrics, reminisce

LOVE YOU



LOVE YOU



LOVE YOU

!!!!!!!! (:
love my mummydearest, aixin (i know you don't like ppl to call you theirs :D), my cousinssssssss (although i haven't been talking to them for a long time except for manyee the auusie chick), all those ppl who i love but don't dare to say cause very uh, weird &mushy hahaha eg zrunfeng :D

went shopping with muzzer<3, big &small bros. bought stuff, happy (: i'll miss my bro when he's off to NS ):

Labels: i love

hi everyone. i hope we're gonna be good anyhow /:

anyway went out with aixin just now (: hahha i wanna have more of that next time hoho &super alot of 2k outings please !!!!!!!! i miss runfeng ): ok there's this crying feeling creeping on me. no la, i'm gonna be just fine. i know i will. love all my friends (:

stop barking like a bastard. if he's stupid like how you always claim, then blame yourself cause you've been teaching him since forever. so keep your big mouth shut, you failure. wake up &look at yourself. you need to realise how much you suck.

Labels: ):

shitty day, as usual.
): shitty 2.4 run, shitty stamina, shitty swollen eyes, shitty headache, shitty friends, shitty confusion, shitty love. zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

chinese test hope can do better this time, at least b3 please please ._. sian shit. TGIF TMR FINALLY OMG !!!!!!!!!!! i totally miss talking to you chen qian hui ! ): i have stuff to tell you again, same old stuff though. sigh, i'm sadddddddddddddd. bye.

Labels: ):, shitty, zzz

last night slept arnd 12, this morn 4.40am woke up for proj ._. i've never done this okay like a lol no. so yeah i managed to survive sch, my eyes are painful like shit feels like there's pus in my eyebags omg wth damn gross zzzzzzzz.
still gonna work on the same old bc stuff now. i hope my eyes stay right where they are now even after tonight.
tanjong katong sec band in the morn was coolz (: the shortest guy on the right was so cute ! :D he swung arnd so much i thought he was gonna twist himself into a knot lol ok not funny. bye.

i love you aixin girlf (: i know we both have many flaws &many ppl dislike us but i love you.

Labels: random, zzz

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't
let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side


no i'm not so weak &dependent, i just think it's sweet.

my life is boring.
i rammed my wound into my desk ._. painful siahzsx lol, what the heck then bled. i've nth to blog about. aixin pon sch eh, i wanna pon sch too. like addicted cause the feeling of staying home is damn song laaaaaaa (:
bc proj is just, boring ._. just like me. sian. bye. look at my dark eye rings. someone.
happy april fool's. wah my tone sibei sian.

Labels: boring, zzzzzz