idk what's going to happen to my stupid younger brother. he ought to be more sensible &grow up like, NOW. just can't stand him really. moron.

anyway, you're making me so sian. it's like, i wanna, but everytime i hear your voice or see your beautiful face, i just cannot cannot do it although it's not very much of a big deal to you. /: why must you be so ()$&*#&%*! ._. sian.

I AM SUPER TIRED BYE. HAPPY BDAY CLAIRE MY LOVE !!! (:

Labels: happy bday, zzzzzz

don't like &don't wanna be anyone's burden.
friends ?

Labels: ._.

'Cause nothing's worth losing
Especially the chance to make it right
I hope we're gonna be fine (:

Afterall we won't get it back when we die.



love y'all girlfs !!!!!!!!!!! MUAHHHHH. hahah eh how i can change phones again lollllllz. shld i take k850i ._. ok nvm. byez i've another hectic weekend to pull through sian. lol, erm, math asgmt, c. lit draft for sanwen, bc proj ._. ohmy zaijian. i painted my nails now i look like some noob sian.

Labels: love, random

HI ! :D this layout is cute &much more colourful lolllllll.
anyway erm hi. i feel like sleeping lollllll aiya i forever feel like sleeping. uh there's chem test tmr ): where's my tutorrrrrrr ohman ): sian.
i sense a headache everytime i think of all the projs &asgmts that i need to do ._. i'm so tireddddddddddddd zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz sian. byebye.

Labels: ._., zzzzzz

601st entry.

anyway today is like a must-blog ._. not that it was exceptionally great, the contrary actually, very shitty. literally.

in the morn i felt a stomachache the moment i stepped outta the car. lagged awhile in class, came out for assembly, stomachache got worse. then cldn't stand straight before anthem, walked alone to the toilet outside DnT room via the gents also near DnT room. the ground was like shaking, i cldn't walk properly cause everything was like turning (wth) &i felt like i was almost gonna faint alr. lol then nabei, fell like a chao noob while going up the small flight of stairs. like WTHHHHH. like the whole sch sing natnl anthem then i fall down lol damn embarrassing la !!!!!!!!!!!! LOL ULTIMATE NOOBJI. nvm not many saw ahahhaha (aww too bad it was really quite unglam &pathetic lollllllllz) then shat a heap of crap. YAY CLEAR BOWELS = FLAT TUMMY :D I LIKE :D then tahan till like 2nd break then went home. my wound is like deeep ._. stupid, i'm going trng tmr &this has to happen, how timely tyvm. ok la bye i gotta try &figure out math remedial ws.

aixin minee thanks for helping today (: i'll be back in sch tmr ): so sad, bye. anyway i used to love going to sch ): call me soon, please ?

Labels: smelly noob

HEY OMGZ PLEASE STEP UP 2 IS DAMN NICE OMGZ :D:D:D:D:D wahlau eh damn nice until like ._. damn nice please. omgggggggggg i'm super duper inspired to dance !! with !! :D omgz please damn hot la i wanna be like andie la wahliewz i don't care i must must must learn man ! wahlau like a super hot ji ! wahlau eh cannot stand it anymore !!!!!!!

I WANNA DANCE
I WANNA BURN FATS
I WANT HOT !!! :D


dammit laaaaaaaaaa omgz step up 2 is freaking overwhelming i love it big man ! seriously. ok i wanna go dance i'm quite determined really omgz. rules man. ok la i ran out of adjectives alr lol.

anyway the outing wasn't that bad. good on the whole (: happy we got tgt once again. thank God we're still this close hohoho. very happy (: went swensens' for dinner very happy (: love 2k !!

byebye. love, jazz (:

Labels: (:, 2k outing, dance, exclaimation mark(s), step up 2

AHHHHHHHH HELLO EVERYONE TODAY IS GOOD FRI :D SO THANK GOD IT'S FRI ONCE AGAIN FOR 2 REASONS !! TODAY'S A HOL &TMR IS SAT HAHAHHA OK ._. i'm excited ! 2k outing later hohoho. ok bye i gotta like bathe change eat &outtttttt (: idk what's wrong with him but nvm just forget it i can never undstd him when he's like that.
yay hope it'll be a successful outing wo ai 2k06 ! ni ai wo ma ? hahahha zaijian. oh plus i'm damn thrilled about the flick we're most probably watchinggggggg ahhhhh so scary lol rule #1 ok bye lolllll. wth i'm quite sure i'm having a moodswing.

Labels: 2k outing, i love 2k

thank God for the long weekend (: happy good friday everyone !

4k feels much more bonded now, like different cliques can click well too haha, so sweet i like :D thank God for friends. CCA still isn't going anywhere for me, which sucks. i don't know la, i'm really... damn tired alr. everytime i think of myself in this pathetic state, the next thing that comes to my mind is fuck it. i don't bother to think anymore. what kind of senior am i ? what kind of senior needs a junior to ask her to go for trngs ? what rights do i have to call them juniors, they're only considered juniors in terms of age, other aspects ? no damned way. they're so much more disciplined, motivated &responsible. what the hell ? what am i doing i don't even know.

my best friends are captains. i don't give my support, i do create more trouble though, what a friend eh. what a fucking failure la right. i don't know la, i don't wanna face anyone or anything cause i know i'll be labeled an asshole senior/teammate &i'm very well aware that i deserve it.


sorry, whoever who needs to hear this, cause i need to say it.

Labels: sorry really

judgment freaks me out.

i don't know how to explain myself. perhaps i really deserve this consequence but... i don't wanttttttttt ! what the heck ): i don't want my friends to judge me because i don't attend cca. don't hate me because i don't go for trngs. feels so shitty ._.

Labels: ):

heyyyyyy. phew, start of term 2 &i skipped 1st day of sch, along with 3 others :D so cute.
so sigh, have to go to sch &face reality tmr ._. super don't feel like but... ahh sian.

yup bye i miss everything about 2006.

Labels: ponnage

okay stay this way, but do mind your moral values, jasmine.

love you dearest noob, &MY FAV GIRLFS (: ! aixin i miss you !!!!!!! the others: we need to go out wth !

when is my period coming ah, ok lo don't come lagi bagus.

fatttttt. whoreeee ._.

1. MATH !
2. CHINESE !
3. CHEM !
4. 1 MORE C. LIT HANDOUT TO CHAOXIE
5. SS !
6. HIST !

1. go out with mandy !
2. go out with brudders
3. go out with awfuls the opposite lol wth lame
4. go out with muzzer<3
5. go out with ._.

zaijian.

Labels: (:, ):, /:, random, to-do list

sian.

don't know la just sian. i wish i... i don't even know what i want ._. what the fuck life stinks.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH wish i cld let it all out. somewhere anywhere. fuck, why am i the way i am now. frigging disappointing. i never ever thought life wld be such a... torture for me. gets me all crushed inside, so hurt, so hard to get over. i don't know what the heck is wrong with me. the person i call my love, i don't think he loves me. the God i worship, i don't think i'm fit to ask anything from him. my cca, my juniors despise me. my grades, i don't know why they're so screwed when i'm more hardworking. why does my life suck.

lagged at home all day today ._. nabei la just call me back. i feel like slapping someone anyone. don't love me just say la, wtf don't leave me hanging here like a chao idiot. aiya wtvr idk why i'm like that.

oh almost forgot, happy belated bday jasmine.

Labels: fuck it

i'm abit sick of blogger. have been thinking of switching to livejournal since a while ago, plus i alr have a lj (no not lanjiao) just that i only have one entry in it &i have absolutely no idea how to make it prettier ._.

okay nvm. today's cute cause it's

MANDY
YAOYU
LIRUI
'S

bdays (: (: happy bday ppl hoho loveeeee !

ok la i think i go do c. lit hw or sth. then watch the thriller till 1am with jasontan &muzzer<3 ! MY LIFE VERY INTERESTING RIGHT THANKS :D bye. ohyes tmr going out with keesiaos AHHHHHHH SO HAPPY (: (: zrf call me now.

ah wait i haven't blog about today ahahhahahha ok gimme a min i'll make it quick :D
went to church in the morn with 2 bros &jason's friend (idk why i like to refer to him as jason lol, sounds weird but i think it's better than gorgor ._. although i call him that at home okay back to the point), had lunch at Bosses, Vivo :D so happy very fab stuff (: then bought new pumps yay finally very pretty (: then bought yaoyu &mandy's presents (: xie xie ni mummy love you (: i think retail therapy works damn well on me (: heard that you bitches, gimme $ when i'm down lol. then had delicious dinner at gramps' :D thank you uncle ! fried rice with crab :D not crap lol sorry lame. ok very high suddenly idk why i think my moodswings damn jialat please. ok i gtg :D count the smileys it's been longggggg. zaijian.

Labels: (:, happy bday, retail therapy

"So what's the problem...
Maybe sch ?
Are you being bullied ?
Or is it sth worse ?
Gimme some clues ?"

"You really wanna know ?"

"I really wanna know."

"Even though you won't be able to do anything to help ?
Okay. Truth is, actually, I'm in love."

"Oh... I'm a little relieved... I thought it'd be sth worse."

"Worse than the total agony of being in love ?"

Labels: love is...

i'm supposed to do filing for C. Lit &Bicultural but here i am. &i just rmbed i'd totally forgotten to call RF ytd. dammit he'll say i have no sincerity again lol. ok nvm call him soon. ahhhhh i've to go soon i needa file my stuff &hand them in today sian.
wonder what the UG ppl are doing now. tonight's campfire sure damn funnnnnnn ! :D aiya sian but i don't think i'm going ._. no i'm quite sure i'm not. hmm so yeah hope everyone's enjoying (: stupid soosien cldn't sleep last night, smsed me but i was zzzing like a log alr, sorry ! but i know you don't read my blog ._.

anyway i read this friend-of-a-friend's blog, kinda inspired me. hmm, this world is sad, innit ? the moment we came out from our mummies' wombs we were crying our asses off.
these days i can't seem to make sense of things. everything. &it doesn't help one bit when he just can't be bothered with anything too ._. like i don't feel loved. i'm glad there're other ppl whom i can seek comfort from.
): i don't know what to do to become happy again. nvm i'm still glad the hols are here, super relieved. i still need to keep my mind occupied though. anyway, does stress cause hair loss ? .-. ok bye i've nth else to say.

梦醒了搁浅了沉默了挥手了 却回不了神

Labels: ):, ug camp, 他不爱我

heyyyyy :D
there goes tuesday, wednesday, thursday ! finally tmr is friday TGIF (: hahaha my last year liao why no one wanna invite me to UG campfire one huh *hint wink nudge. lol anyway i hope everyone will have a lot of fun at camp, ok please don't kill me. every year i say the same thing, every year i get the same face ._.

so yeah i've to redo my one last zuowen before the hols start omg please super happy !!!!!!!!!! (: i think i've really been too exhausted this term. hope to get into mugging mode asap, then adapt to everything, starting acing before my GPA drops beyond help. yes ! 08 resolution, abit late though, nvm (:

ok la zaijian imma blog in my secret blog :D shh private stuff sorry. but can't blame me right, my readership high. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA ok bye.

Labels: exclaimation mark(s), happy, 明天过后

i'm a bitch, an asshole of a friend
&no i don't feel good about that
but you all shld run away from me
i mean it.


wonder how it feels like to be friendless
lonely ? yes
peer pressure, no
conformity, no

i'll have to please no one

goodbye innocent naive gullible stupid little girl
hello fucked up cynical bitchy shithole Jasmine

i'm sorry

Labels: ):, sorry really

today is the most special day in a leap year. it's coolz.
._. i think i need a good talk with you. i seriously need to clear all my doubts &try to improve the situation. if it doesn't work out then it's goodbye ): i don't want to but i can't stand it anymore.

Labels: ):, exclaimation mark(s), leap year