Love is for fools.

Jazz, you know?

Tuesday, July 31, 2007 @ 1:01 PM

Don't let the tears fall.

After a while you learn

the subtle difference between

holding a hand and chaining a soul

and you learn

that love doesn't mean leaning

and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn

that kisses aren't contracts

and presents aren't promises

and you begin to accept your defeats

with your head up and your eyes ahead

with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child

and you learn

to build all your roads on today

because tomorrow's ground is

too uncertain for plans

and futures have a way of falling down

in mid-flight.

After a while you learn

that even sunshine burns

if you get too much

so you plant your own garden

and decorate your own soul

instead of waiting for someone

to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure

you really are strong

you really do have worth

and you learn

with every goodbye, you learn...

"After a While"... by Veronica A. Shoffstall

Monday, July 30, 2007 @ 8:07 PM

really hope tmr won't suck.

@ 2:31 PM

perhaps the only thing i can do is to help. yes i want you to be happy.

@ 2:10 PM

you know i'm not as brave as you think i am, wee.
it is hard for me to take.
i don't have a heart of steel, i'm afraid of getting hurt too.

Labels: not all that brave

@ 1:24 PM

made me realise i'm a total bitch, sorry to have let you down. &yes i know actions speak louder than words, i'll mend my ways. sorry.

@ 11:20 AM

i have biancai tmr. it's the saddest thing man. ):

sundays are for chionging overdue asgmts, damn. i've a lot to catch up with. &looking forward to liuliu's good news about math test. bye.

Sunday, July 29, 2007 @ 12:37 PM

so intra-athletics sports heats went well. although i didnt do exceptionally well or wtvr la. everyone good run yeah (:

alright, my translation competition is over hahahoho &i enjoyed it. didn't get into top4 teams though, what a shame zzz. but nvm good job la everyone (:

i want my mama to buy my clothessssss :D &i've lots of hw for the weekend, kills man. i wanna go fish &co with muzzer<3 &papa. aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. 2 bicultural reports to complete by monday, not forgetting Taiwan report. frigging SS. &still got what man, i dont know liao la. kanasai. sian ok im going out with my parents for dinner woo. like damn long liaooooooo (:

Friday, July 27, 2007 @ 1:15 PM

you still make me go gaga (back then was gagagagagagagagagagagagagagagaga, lol). &i still do love you.
i wanna sleep man, so sleepy. where's my shoulder to lean on !! COME HERE YOU RICH MEN'S SONS.
ambition: be taitai, play mahjong, high tea, shop, eat &SJ to husband for more $ everyday. AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. of course not.

@ 12:15 PM

FOOOOD ! :D tv's showing many many types of bao !! (: i love charsiew best, hoho. *bites

anyway heritage day was cool, but i like last year's atmosphere better, &i miss zaviar's satays lol. so sad. anyhow it went well but i was totally unglam hahahhaha. oh &3D's game was damn cool, although abit gross la. hahah i kept going arnd screaming in demand of my prizes. :D

then translation was alright. math tuition with Choybh. omg i tell you he's a pro man, period. like magic man, lol ! i undstd indices now !! damn cool woooooo :D tmr is math test, so wish me luck ! (: i wanna pass, &if possible do a little better than "borderline" so liuliu will be proud of me.

wahlau eh tmr i got dental appointment im scared i dont want go ):

Labels: dental apptmt, heritage day, math test

Wednesday, July 25, 2007 @ 11:24 AM

TMR IS HERITAGE DAY !! (:
so excited. but i'll be more thrilled if i've an ethnic costume to wear tmr !! like cheongsam or saree. but dont have ): alright nvm. later i'll ask my mum &if i have a costime i'll wear it tmr with celine chen the noobgay !! :D

ok i have blog quickly &start on my stupid translation hw ._. sucks. hmm so today. self trained with weeseow, sherrie &yuxin did too. a lot of work &i'm starting to enter mugging mode, so yup, stress' building zzz. aiya, wtvr.

thinking a lot these days, &if i'm brave enough i'll ask. i know i ought not to expect too much. cause the higher the hopes, the harder the fall. just one more shot before i put it all behind me. thanks in advance for not taking it to heart.

Labels: (:, heritage day tmr

Tuesday, July 24, 2007 @ 2:23 PM

就算事情不妙，我们会在这儿扶你振作。
没有对不起自己就好，尝试过就好。
尽管让泪水流下吧，尽管靠在我肩上。
我会在这儿守护你，让受伤的心灵痊愈。

Labels: because you're my friend

@ 2:00 PM

sometimes it gets so damn hard to change your mentality, it makes me feel as if i'm a useless friend, not being able to make you feel better most of the time. cmon man, keep an open &positive mind. i really hope OBS has made an impact on you &taught you about belief.

seriously, i love you &i don't wanna see you feeling dejected every single shit day of your life. take a change, you don't know what &who's waiting. so if you wld just take a few more steps, your courage will pay off someday, i promise.

i hope you get me now.

*****

been thinking. &thinking, &thinking.
the words are somewhere near my mouth, &i'll spill anytime if i don't control myself enough.
i've many things to consider-- i don't want it to jeopardise our relationship, things are going well now. OBS taught me that there're many others who deserve my attention &love, not just you all the time. but i also learnt "no belief, no happening".
yes i do want to give it one last shot, so i'll leave no regrets when i look back. at least i won't let myself down. i know it's naive of me, cause duh, i'm fully aware i'll have to face it all over again if things don't go well.

i'll do it when i'm brave enough (will probably need a lot of Dutch courage).

Labels: belief, simultaneity of love and hate

Monday, July 23, 2007 @ 11:37 AM

i'm so happy my maid's gonna be back tonight wooooooooo :D
ok so tmr is a brand new day &we're all going back to sch. still not used to it, i miss being at Ubin. i miss doing all the saigang with the other Kurts. sigh ):

alright, hang in there jasminetan.

Labels: a shoulder to lean on

Sunday, July 22, 2007 @ 1:49 AM

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool;
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental;
To reach out for another is to risk involvement;
To expose feelings is to risk exposing our true self;
To place your ideas, your dreams, before the crowd is to risk loss;
To love is to risk not being loved in return;
To live is to risk dying;
To hope is to risk despair;
To try at all is to risk failure;
But to risk we must, because the greatest hazard in life
Is to risk nothing.
The man, the woman, who risks nothing, does nothing,
has nothing, is nothing.

this is the exact quote my Kurt instructor Naf read us. i like it a lot, &i certainly miss being at Ubin going through all the shit with my dearest Kurts. i miss the shit places we camped at, i miss the pretty starry sky at Ubin, i miss my instructor, i miss chionging because we don't want Naf to be angry with our lack of time management again. i wanna return to that shit sea &peddle with all my might, i wanna return to star-gaze &fantasise, i wanna return to the trekking place to relive moments when Kurts encouraged one another. i miss OBS.

yes of course it's been hard &tough &torturous, but the lessons learnt are worth so much more. thank you OBS &my Kurts.

CheeLin, Calvin Tay, Desmond, LingYun,
Rachael, Louisa, JinJing, Yvonne, Jie En, PeiShi, Madeleine, Sarah, Jasmine, Yu Xuan, Sherry, Nicole.

Labels: i'm back but i want Ubin

Saturday, July 21, 2007 @ 2:54 PM

To Serve To Strive &Not To Yield.

WO AI OBS. (:

Monday, July 16, 2007 @ 6:45 AM

yumyum :D my muzzer<3 is baking some strawberry pastry for us wooo :D freak cool la i can smell it from here ! (: thankyou momma. almost finish packing for OBS alr. so bloody excited la wahlau (: ROCKS, wanna meet my OBS group.

luoyusi is crap man zzz. i've OBS then you still gimme translation to do wahlau eh, dont be bimb leh. sian ): i don't think i can win anything from the dumb competition la. the rest of RV's team is so bloody pro la, send a noob like me for what. zzz even the sec2s so freak pro ._. lameshit. sian la, i mean i like translation la, but then i feel noob. zzzzzzz alright forget it.

then still got stupid PI, wah sian ji puah man, really.

but yay everyone's gonna be damn ugly at OBS haahhaha, ok lameshit. eh but i'm really bringing all the baggy (&some ugly) clothes leh lol. yay everyone's gonna be unglam ahhahaha. looking forward to all the fun man (:

GOD'S UNFAILING LOVE.

Sunday, July 15, 2007 @ 3:40 PM

i realised i didn't blog about today's Bombidums' outing after Speech Day wahlau how could i ):
okay anyway we made a lot of noise at Ikea's restaurant as usual la. sorry esther ! ZZZZZ. then got stuff for OBS. argh annoying PI ):

what happened to you today ? don't be sad okay, cheers. &you didn't even tell me how it went ._. okay, not like you're obliged to but.. zz nvm. bye.

Labels: dont ):

@ 12:21 PM

hey. i'm really quite excited about OBS (: hahahah at least i won't have my period woooooooo. anyway, omg i went to this guy's friendster &i nearly puked. i mean seriously wahlau. lol, his pictures are all of himself somemore those actcute ones omg. scare me man, lol. shithole i really am feeling nauseous. shit.

im going to bitch again. ): this friend of mine, i used to think he was okay. but then he's getting more annoying everyday then i very sianned zzz. wahlau then he likes to act pro &is full of excuses. &worst of all, so gay, not one bit a gentleman. zzz ok i feel very shit now.

hahaha i love my bro lol, he's so sweet :D he helped me to wash my plate (my maid's away for 2weeks, liew.)

ok everyone i suggest y'all wear disposables (although it's freaking unsexy) during obs cause more convenient. lol eh wahlau i'm advising at the expense of my image &reputation ok, nabeis. byebye, OBS HERE I COME !! :D:D:D

Labels: obs

Saturday, July 14, 2007 @ 11:40 AM

wah abit stressed cause of tmr's sec1s cip. nvm i'm strong.

this morning ran like a useless 16min ._. reached sch at 7.15 zz very lame right. nvm tmr continue running (: run run run ! hahahahaha, lameshit. sian i wanna eat icecream lol. siannnnnn.
just now kexin gave me inspiration to make strawberry satay woo !!!!! cool stuff :D:D like damn nice la, i mean i can imagine (: ahha i'm gonna make it. anyway i think i'll cry during OBS cause too tired lol. sounds noob. bye.

So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

If I could, then I would
I'd go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then I hope there's someone out there

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll stay with you for all of time

Who can bring me back to you

Labels: wherever you will go

Friday, July 13, 2007 @ 11:36 AM

hellooooooo. i miss Coachy, although trngs aren't so hard to bear w/o him.
today had 30min run. totally miss runs like that. man, &I'M SO FREAKING FAT (IN MY OPINION) I HOPE MY MORNING RUNS ARE GONNA HELP MAN. WTH I CANNOT STAND BEING FAT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! big sian.

): anyway gonna run tmr morning (hope i wake up on time) yay. then support carrots' events (: but im gonna miss DLim's lesson, sian. zz, ok good luck carrots, love.

translation hw (wth feel like dying) &taiwan report wahlau eh. i still owe Serene teo taiwan stuff wahlau eh. sucks big.

Thursday, July 12, 2007 @ 1:14 PM

I learnt that boys don't say what they mean.
If they were 5, they'd lieto get candies &toys.
When they're 15, they'd lie to keep a small waist, nice legs &big boobs.

cmon.

Labels: boys lie a lot

Wednesday, July 11, 2007 @ 1:05 PM

woo today was cool :D i love y'all Bombidums (: (: !!!!!!!!!!!! damn cute la today's self trng hohoho.
wth, 3 x 400m plus 200m. lol very lame but like very fun (: thank you claire &kexin &leena for being coach for a day (actually only in charge of blowing the lousy whistle from PE stall ._. ) !!!!

then playing Captain's ball with bryce (sorry no boodles), ben jin &junming LOL so cool right. teambuilding day :D then jiashit came along (:
but we didnt manage to play LYZXJ in the end cause all were sian alr (aww. nvm next time with seniors !! (: ) &then ncc was as cool as usual ahahha.

congrats to the juniors !!!! (: &yuxin &kexin on getting into finals (just got the msg that we can't go ._. sucks). &the other prokias too WOOOOOOOO :D all of you kick ass okay hahahahohoho. go rock. (: LOVE A LOT ! well done muah !!

KEXIN I LOVE YOU OKAY (:
think of wtvr that's gonna help tmr during finals. can't be there to root for you, but we love you. (: if it's gonna be effective, think of the past with CC. push yourself &do us proud, love.

Labels: CARROTS I LOVE YOU

Tuesday, July 10, 2007 @ 11:56 AM

我喜欢3岁时，因为我在幼稚园老师裙上撒过尿。至少我曾这么放肆。
我喜欢岁，幼稚园毕业时。就算不上大学，至少我曾戴过方帽。
我喜欢7岁，当老师的小伴娘。
我喜欢９岁时，第一次尝到暧昧的滋味。
我喜欢１２岁，第一次会考完毕那种放下重担的爽感。
我喜欢１４岁真正恋爱的感觉。

１５岁...
我不喜欢失恋的感觉。
我不喜欢想念却不能说的压迫感。
我不喜欢这样的１５岁。

Monday, July 09, 2007 @ 2:15 PM

what is the point of getting so close to new ppl so quickly ?
does she really open up to all her good friends ? if so, then she must have her secrets all over (?). weird how ppl can be so good at befriending new ppl &then behaving like BFFs.
i'm not sure about y'all, but i'm definitely not very good at this.

don't know, i just feel weird about it. like, how can friendship be built so quickly &easily in a matter of weeks ? (i'm talking about BFF kinda friendship here)
true, firm &strong friendship takes time &many screwed incidents to build. it isn't just about a few photographs, or being in the same group in some camp &having a few days' fun tgt. it just isn't la. to me, new ppl can be friends, in fact they are friends. but it really takes time for me to put 'best' before friends.
i just feel that friendship isn't so simple &i don't believe in behaving like BFFs with new friends. /: quite a turn off sometimes, actually.

haha, but yeah, maybe that's because I HAVE NO FRIENDS aww.

@ 12:35 PM

if only i could be this dumb everyday until the end of this life.
i don't wanna grow up.

i don't want any responsibilities. i don't wanna be so witty such that i start doing nasty things to ppl i love. i don't wanna lose the child in me. i don't wanna lose faith in my loved ones. i'm afraid to take on challenges, i'd rather school forever.

i wanna scream during PE everyday &LMAO when playing netball. i wanna be excited about trng everyday. i wanna laugh at Chew's stupidity (:D) &discuss with celine about the bimbotic things she does in class. i wanna try my best to answer Choybh's qns during math lectures &squeal when i'm correct. i wanna fantasise about my dream wedding &my future husband with my girls. i wanna munch on good food like no one's business. i wanna watch a movie &cry my ass off. i want all of this to stay in my life.
i'd rather be naive forever.

i wanna fall in love, i wanna live.

Labels: i wanna

@ 4:50 AM

yep, the taiwan ppl are on their way to shanghai.

last night (how the heck do you spell ton, as in stayed up whole night kinda ton. wth.) celine &i taunt lol &she was so glad she successfully stayed up all night w/o sleeping a wink :D i slept for 30min hahaha buay tahan man. she really gives me the feeling of my mum sometimes. weird.

aiya i still have tons of hw, bye.

Saturday, July 07, 2007 @ 11:19 AM

heyyyyyy.

my buddy'll be at my place till sunday morning.
hmm, tmr i think i'll be shopping wooo ! :D cheap stuff at bugis hohohaha. retail therapyyyyyyy. yes i deserve it a lot because i'm very tired &suffered much hardship lol. okay, not really. i just really feel like dying hahaha.

i dont know la, i think i'm quite bad to my buddy. as in like, my house is boring, i've nth for her to do (ZZZZZZZZ !). then like, she looks very bored then i feel bad ): argh.

nvm, retail therapy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (: celine i wanna hang with you &your buddy tmr leh. very sian leh. &she bully you again i kill her man. she's a big asshole.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007 @ 2:40 PM

so today there was trng &i still was lagging. wahlau when can i keep up with the pack huh. damn, kexin gimme your legs la. aiya abit sian only. ): try to run tmr (I DON'T KNOW WHAT TIME I'M GONNA SLEEP AGAIN ZZ.)

aiya bloody myphotoalbum is screwed. my com is lagging. wahlau eh. sian ji buah.
still doing translation. wahalu eh can die leh, i still got history. wahpiang i've a feeling of becoming a mugger. lol but i don't think so la, compare me &yihui then i tio DQ straight away. lol sian.

siao how to run sia can die.

paiseh clairechen i'm still uploading the pics to my stupid myphotoalbum ._. taking a hell long time. zzz.

Labels: zzz

Tuesday, July 03, 2007 @ 1:09 PM

went shopping again.

sat was at town with A, today hanged with Qianda. (:
i swear i felt like a loser on both days la, wahlau eh. i hate the feeling of being broke.
clairechen i love you ! ahhaha.
umbrella, ella, ella, ella, eh eh, under my umbrella !!!!!!!!!!! :D

therefore, MORAL OF ALL STORIES:
MARRY A DAMN RICH MAN.

back to sch tmr /: i love lagging arnd &wasting my life. afterall it's better than studying, because my sch is rvh (she confiscates my life &gives me a demeritpt if i try to take it back).

Labels: hanging

Monday, July 02, 2007 @ 11:49 AM

eBuddy's cool.

why do i have the sudden strong urge to spill everything ?

你是第一个令我又爱又恨的人。
这种感觉很矛盾，进退两难。):

manyeeee i'm so happy to see you again (: hope we'll be able to do wtvr we've planned the next time you come back !! haha WE MUST SLIM DOWN LOL.

happy youth day.

Labels: celebrate youth, love comma hate

@ 6:32 AM

while some ppl win every kind of trophy, others just suck at everything.

although you're a complicated person who scares me, i still love you.

you're always the reason for my tears but i love you nonetheless.

bloody GST is 7% zzz.

Labels: ):